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I always get partially depressed whenever my dad goes overseas, and he hasn't texted mom the whole day and he usually would. I know it can't be helped but ugh, screw this feeeeeliiinnngggg. Today's just not a very happy day.

Hot.

At times like these, I feel like transforming into a big slab of salmon and resting peacefully in the fridge till the day someone takes me out and bakes me in good ol' black pepper sauce.

Ketchup

Ooh k, so I met up with my neighbour-who's-my-exclassmate, weiwen last night. It was suuuperr coool to seee him again, cause like I havent met him like in forever although we live like super near each other. And the main reason why we havent met was because of this asshole who created this email about me and ex bf and sent it to like a gazillion people. A GAZILLION PEOPLE!!! WHO WOULDN'T BE ANGRY YOU TELLL ME?!?!?!?!??!? so I was telling him what an asshole he was, and he was telling me what a mean bitch I was to delete and block him on MSN and cancel him offff from my friend's list.

But yeah. That was like 2 years ago, and we just laughed over it. Those stupid childish moments we all once had. and I added him back on MSN again and.......... we're good again I guess! cause somehow, although we havent talked for like 2 years, I would never imagine myself sitting beside him and just talking trash like how we used to do it in sec 3 and 4.

We were table mates and I liked him being my table mate and he liked me being his table mate, and we made really good table mates since we both looove spazzing over spongebob and patrick and we live just blocks away from each other. I don't really get why he liked to call me a slut and I would call him a bastard, not because I was crude but I used it as a defence. But he was crude, and still is crude. and I would take homework for him when he's sick and he would take homework for me when I was sick, and we would meet up to pass each other homework and sometimes buy fisherman's friends because it's good for the throat. I went up to his house once cause I was curious to seeee how his house looks like, and his mother loved me and both of us talked like we knew each other for a really long and his house was sooo noisy because he has 3 younger brothers and they are super cute. When we were bored, we would go each other's house downstairs and just talk about any thing under the mooon, and it was like how it was, last night.

So yeahhhh. It was... nice. but no, we don't like each other in that.. way because, that would be gross. Wei wen, you will never ever seee this post, but yeah, this post is for you. : )

and that reminds me, I HAVE TO START MEEETING OOLLLDD PEOPLEEEEE, at least last night was a start.

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I wonder how chongsy (my law tutor) became a lawyer, LAWW IS TOUGHHH SHIT MANNNNNN T_T

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Ahhh, yesterday's short-lived happiness was greaaaat, I enjoyed it to the fullest. It felt perfect for some reasons. Finished advertsiing management exam, ate burger king for lunch, had random loonnng talk with sak and lazing around, coming back home to go for a loonnng swiiim, checking for our free elective results, watching i love beth cooper (it's a really stupid show) with my sister online, reading some random Harry Potter book and sleeping at 10!!!

I realize it's not goood to sleeep at 10, cause I would end up waking at 3am in the morning and trying my hardest to fall back into sleeep. and I woke up with aches in my calves and my armsss, I think I havent swam for a really long time and my body's really rusty and cramping up. -.-

Yesterday was a gooood dayyy. And now, it's back to the nauseating rollercoaster ride of studying. BUT HELL YEAHHH media law ethics and public relations papperrrrr!!!!!!!!! GO GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!

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OH. MY. GOSH

I GOT INTO RADIO PRODUCTION AND BROADCAST JOURNALISM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME SHIT AWESOME SHIT AWESOME SHIT OESOPHAGUSSSSSS

It feeels like a dream!!!! BUT IT'S NOT!!! It's a beautiful reality ~ HAHAHHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAFAUSIOFEwNFOIWENIDNWE

Tired.

"Tired" is such a stupid word. IT REALLY MAKES me feel tired immediately whenever I see the word or someone says to me, or I say it myself, it's a negative word. I don't like it. I hate using it, but I use it alot of it myself, while complaining to myself mentally.

Alot of people are tired, and they keep telling me that they are tired. And I'm always trying to make them feeeel more positive, but it never works, cause they tell me they are tired again, and it's like a circle, everything goes back to square one. and I get tired of listening to people say they are tired.

I wish someone would come up randomly to tell me, "HEY! Let's go be happy together! Wanna be happy with me?" and I would reply, "OK! LET'S GO BE HAPPY TOGETHER!. ^_____^"

My sister

My sister turns 21 today!!! : )Celebrated it with her for the past two days, it was really warm and fuzzzyyy. She finds it weird if I draw her cards, cause we seee each other every day and we talk to each other every day, and there's nothing we couldn't tell each other about. So i drew her a little cute note and pasted it on the toilet mirror before I went to sleeep last night, so she would wake up and brush her teeth to it.

Had ultimate kick asssss comfort foood for the past two days, and I'm feeeeling gooood just thinking about it! : ) and impromptu short meet up with ally bells yesterday cheered me up too, thanks for the yami yoghurt treat babeeeeee. You're really one of the few friends who live around me and I always feel super uber comfortable when I'm with cha. : )

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I've been feeeling super average lately. I haven't been talking to alot of people or socializing or just talking, just keeeeping alot of secret thoughts to myself. I don't know whyyy I always feeel like super duper crappy when it's exam period, or is eeveryone like me?!?!?!? The last time I felt excited was when I was dancing to random chinese new year song with my dad in a supermarket yesterday.

I feel like a rock.

Hello.

Today was the dreaded finance test. It was a chaotic 1 hour, and getting shocked at unfamiliar questions and stuffffff and trick questions and oh my gosh swirly wirly aches spinning in my head like blending tomato juice and cucumber slices and people flipping pages so quickly oh no why are they writing so fasssst how come i don't know this question and more flipping of pages sound how the helll did you finish that page so quickly and an annoying person tapping feet and people cheering next door oh shut up and 10 more minutes left oh my gosh 9 more minutes yet i havent done my calculations yet pls time pls time tick slower oh my gosh how to do thisssss and people leaving the rooom what the hellllllllllll why are you leavingggggg dont leaaaavveee the room is getting empty pens down. My heart stopped.

I wish people have the habit of adding smileys in their messages, it makes people like me smile. oh!!!! and me and tam bought sisterhood handphone stickers, it's damn kewt (cute). I realize I have been missing out alot, I really wish I could catch up with more people. I really doooo, don't forget me. : (

Eaaaat

I feel horrible today. I don't know whyyyyy. and when I feel horrible, I start to eat. I will reallllyyyyy stufff myself silly with all the wrong foooood, I ate 5 slices of bah kwa, 4 pineapple tarts, 4 slices of kueh lapis for lunch today. LUNCH!!!!!!!!!! But I made myself feeel even more horrrible.

No visiting today, cause of some reasons.. but going back to grandma's house in the night did make me feeeeel better! And I ate more,but it was like the gooood comfort food. Not like trash eating session. Oh my gosh, I really am one grouchy person today.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Sooo, I stayed over at my grandma's with my family, it was really nice, I would do it every year if I could, and I think I would, just to accompany her through out the new year's eve night! So my grandma, me and sis shared two mattresses on the ground, it was soooo nolstalgic. Cause I rmb when we had sleepovers in our younger days, we would sleep on the exact same mattress, with the green cover and dove printings on it. I slept very well. : ) and I really treasure grandma alot, cause she's my only only grandparent left and I love her alot.

Well, I didn't do much visiting this year. Actually, we haven't been doing so ever since my grandpa and my other grandmother left us. We would just go to a few relatives house and talkk and play boggle and cards and taboo sometimes and watch tv, most of the time at my grandma's house. and I donno, I wasn't very psyched about it also cause I have a test to study for : ( and some of my cousins and I studied in a room just now, while the rest played cards and watched tv. yeah, that's how I spent my new year!!!! oh and steamboat!!!! It was really nice tooo, ever since I've a new aunt last year, we had to allll squeeeze in this tiny round table, but it was still lovely. I felt sick after that, cause I think I ate too much fishballs.

Every time during Chinese New year, my aunt would bring us to the rooom with my grandpa's framed black and white picture and kinda like say quiet prayers to him. It has been.... 9 years!!!!! Oh dear, I really miss him. EVERY TIME I SEEEE his photo, I would always cry. I am an emotional sponge. : (

my grandma's house holds so many memories close to my hearrrtttttt <3 oh and I haven't opened up my ang paos yet!!!!!!!

Ok

Sometimes I don't get why people are so immature. Talk so much.

T___T

Just when I thought it's alll over, IT'S NOTTTT. Frigging finance test on THURSDAY, PLEASE. SAVE. MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

UCCD test sucks like crap cakes. But on a lighter note, I had a deeeelicious bowl of noodles for dinner, with lots of fishcake and char shao, sliced with love by Daddy. I can't wait to eat steamboat tmr, cause I will be hardcore attacking the fishballs, FISHBALLLS!!!!! <3 and staying over with my grandma, so I won't be using the internet, but it's ok, it gives me more motivation to start studying finance.

And I got my first choice elective, Broadcast Journalism through balloting today. Balloting is scary unfair shit. There were 10 people but only 9 spaces left, cause people who took up radio and tv production concentration got more advantage and they already got the spaces. I didn't want to be that unlucky person, nobody wanted to. and I saw farhannah cry because she didn't get it. It hurts me although I don't really know her very well. But at the same time, I didn't want to be the person crying. : ( This sucks, it sucks to be selfishhh. But yeahhh. Oh welll.

Oh well.

My parents LOOVVEEE to remind us about lots of stuffff. Especially when it comes to eating fruits. I was sleeeeeping on the couch just now, LIKE ALMOST GOING TO SLEEEP YOU KNOW, but then my ah pa hor, HAD TO LIKE SHOUT, "HAN PAPAYA IN KITCHEN GO EAT, NOW" and then there was once where he was reminding me to eat banana like 5 times, every 2 min interval. Ok yeah, I know this is random but yeah, random.

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Today was another laughing day! Oh my gosh, I realize I laugh alot. LIKE ALOOOTTTT, it's like buckets and buckets fulll of laughter every day. and then I come back home and laugh again. Wah today awesome sia, cause me and tam got free ice cream! :D

C'MONNNNNnnnnn ONE MORE DAYYYY AND HOLIDAYS!!!! Ok not holidays, I mean, study weeek. NOoooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooo

I. need. to. eat

I think, I am screwed for finance presentation. I CANT BELIEVE I LAUGHED OVER NOTHINGGGG DURING MY ENTIRE PRESENTATION TODAY. I REALLY LAUGHED LIKE HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHA, like ON AN ON LAUGHING!!!! I am screwed. The thought of studying finance during chinese new year really irks me. BUT I DONT WANNNA RETAKE FINANCE NEXT SEMMM, so I jolly welll study hard for this one.

Somehow, I became sad jsut now for a moment, but then !! Talking to people on MSN cheered me up. : )

HELP4HAITI

I did something meaningful today. Helped out for tammy's HELP4HAITI, and we raised $900+ for the first day! We have two more days to go, and it's A REALLY REALLY good start, everyone's really nice and generous! Efong and gang super funny and damn ON, they're the greatest bunch of guys.

School's still as busy as ever. And I just want to ignore certain things for now cause it's not doing my brain goooood. One big hurdle is down, now we have UCCD test on friday and finance presentation on wednesday, which we havent even STARTED. ok. I wonder what we're gonna do. This is getting harder than I thought, but schoool life has always beeen this hectic. MUST. PERSERVERE.

It's finally over.

Yep, event management is finalllyyyy OVERRRRR! I know I'm being selfish by saying this, BUT I THINK OUR EVENT WAS LIKE THE BEST AMONG THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and I ate fastfoood 4 times this week, FOUR TIMES!!!!!! But it's ok, I kinda worked it off from walking up and down to miss lum's rooom and adrian's room to carry heavy stuff. My arms don't seeem so flabby, OR SO I THINK. But UGH, I JUST ATE BAH KWA.

But yeah!!!! My minah gang girls came!!!!! <3 <3 and the whole bunch of syafiqah's friends!!!! <3<3 THEY WERE ALLL SO NICEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I really enjoyed talking to every single one of them during their lunch, it was really funn. I wish I could see them again. Our room really loooked like some hotel's ballrooom loh, NO KIDDINGZ. GOT RED CARPET AND LIGHTS AND STREAMERS. I felt kind of sad when we had to throw some of our decorations away, cause it felt like my one night stay in some luxurious hotel ended. And then, it was back to the empty disgustingly plain boring looking classroom.


I love The Glam Slam.

Clementi

C'monnNNN!!!! It's so near yet so far. We kinda finished some of our deco today, but not entirely... and like mopped around in biggg boook shop at clementi today and bought fabric again, our room is gonna be cloth-y cause it's gonna be BOOOOOM KABLOOOM WOW WOW WOW. But I'm kinda excited cause tammy's performing, and I like to watch her perform. HEHE :D

My heart is itching when I think of it, cause I don't really know what's gonna happen, cause sak had a nightmare about it.. and we've been garbage collectors collecting cardboards from drinkstall aunty and food court 5 where the smelly cheeese from pizza hut and oily KFC live. But I'm very determined not to have that little glimmer of flame diminish. Everyone's working really damn hard on this, and I am sure all of us will get good grades!!!!

Welll, event planning is suuuuper tedious. Yet so fulfilling when you've done something right, or think of really good ideas together.

OH WHAT JOY!!!

Wow, today was MIND BLOWING. like I could feel fireworks exploding my mind.

It didn't start off goood, but it ended off gooood!! I like impromptu classss thingys :D :D THANK YOU MISSS NGAAAAAA for dinner, it really made my day. Food really makes me happy. But I think I exceeded by fat intake for today, for having fast food for lunch and dinner.

BUT I AM SO HAPPY!!!! Cause we met this REALLY REALLY CUUUUUTEEE LITTLE TODDLER!!! We were alll so amused by him. He was like dancing to Super Junior's SORRY SORRY and imitating what we all did!!!! and eating ice cream angled 180 degree to his face, which caused a huge mess on his face. So cute that I wanted to rent him home for one day for 10 dollars to amuse myself and return it back the next day.

I need to stop being overly excited. NEED TO STOP BEING OVERLY EXCITED UNNECCESSARILY.