I misss flower, bitch and shia labeouf. But life goes on. : (

I haven't really been updating much, just bits and scraps on how I'm feeling. But lately I've been feeling crappish. Have been staying late in school every single day, lessons which end super early in the day were only there to mislead us. Early days which you though you could go shopping, watch a movie or just go home, are actually strategically arranged in a way that we could have the rest of the day doing... FYP (a.k.a final year project). But!!! I must say I am starting to know my group mates alot better (cause half of them are from different classes) and it's not awkward now, considering how much time.. we have spent in just two weeks.

then come home, eat, watch tv and then too tired to do anything so I sleep at 10. Sounds like what a primary school kid would do right? Ok maybe not. primary school kids nowadays very happening, got a lot of life. Morning classes are dreadful, I only like tuesdays.

and I really misssss hanging out with peopleeee i loooveee.

Fooood

I really havent been watching what I eat. I just ate pizza hut with my sister again!!!!! i binge eat sometimes, and I know it's bad but the feeling of stuffing down 6 slices of pizza feels... phenomenal and then after all that, I feel good. and then.. I start to feel horrible. like now. : (

Need. to. stay. positive.

Me and sak couldn't do filming for aaron : ( and FYP presentation tmr !!!!!!!!!

I feeeel.... crappy. Yeah, that's what.. I'm feeling now.

Sorry : (

I feel like I have been super mean lately. I don't really know why.. Like really really mean!!! oh welll.

But on the other hand, I like to send happy good morning messages to random people whom i care about during my 7.30am train ride to school, and receiving their replies. hahahah.

I'm going to miss both of you, more than you know it. : ( and both of you don't know the existance of my blog.. but oh well. I REALLY REALLY AM!!!!

MARK KOH YOUR EMAILS ARE SO @!#*)(@!*#). WHY YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME CRY : (

Today, I was too harsh on a friend I love alot. I'm sorry!!!!! :(

I just mopped the floor. I hate doing house chores. I feel like cinderella, without the glass slippers, prince charming and fairy god mother.

Yesterday

So I have been feeling crappy for almost every day in the entire week but yesterday.. was SUPER EPIC FUUN!!!!!!! cause i went to weiwen's house last night! cause he's gonna enlist next monday and we wanted to meet up for the last time before he goes in soo.. yeah.

His family cheered me up into bitssss, I love everyone in there. Felt like all my troubles melted away and I didn't need to care about them then. 3/4 of the time that I was there, I spent it on my laughing my heart out cause everyone so cute there!!! watched HBO with his entire family on the couch, ate cheeesecake that he made for me, having a heart to heart talk with his mother and his younger brothers were showing me around, and looking at random old childhood things and old photo albums, with his mother snapping alot of pictures of me and I don't know why and blasting music at 11pm int he night and singing taylor swift songs.. Omg.

I'm so gonna miss you bitch, pls take care!!!

: )

Talking to my sister over dinner was the best part of the weeeeeek. I've been so preoccupied with my own thoughts, I totally forgot to share them with her. and she bought me a blueberry tart!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) and it feels good to be happy tonight.

Another Sundayyy..

So went to town yesterday to seeee sak perm her hairr and bei bao to trim his browsss!!!! sak looks super high fashion now, seriously SERIOUSLY!!!!!! it's so vintage high fashion. i screamed when i saw her, HAHAHAHH!!!!

so it's a sunday again!!! My family members have different obsessions. my dad has this obsession of cooking chicken curry on weekends, and he cooked it again this sunday, I don't know why but he thinks it isn't perfect but I think it's super super perfect already!!!! and now my mom and sis switched to watching korean dramas, instead of hong kong dramas, they really super hardcore drama fanatics. and my obsession? I don't really have one now, hahha.


sis: HAN!! QUICK, I SHOW YOU SOMETHING!!!

me: huh what??!

sis: I BOUGHT NEW SHOES!!!!!

me: WHAT NOOO YOU SO DID NOT

sis: I SO DID!!! I quickly rushed and hid it in the storeroom at a nice safe spot : )


my sister and her obsession with shoes. SHE REALLY HAS ALOT ALOT SHOES

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY : (

my pretty momma


my handsome ah pa
























my sister and I've constipated smiles

Yesterday, went karaoke with my primary schoool kiddozz!!!!! I HAD SO SOO SOOO MUCH FUUNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's so strange how close we're getting, though it's our 2nd meet up, i felt like I know them for yearrrssss. More outings to come :)

Today, went for ice cream therapy with an old friend. : )

and then, went for one of my dear friend's father's wake. : ( I felt really really sad, even though I don't even know her father personally.. but just seeing her so tired and sad made me cry and made me hug her so tightly I didn't want to let go. and I saw kent!!!! it's been sooo long, i misssed him and he cheered me up. Pls take care li ling!!!!! i love you so much, <3

Ugh stupid weather

Today's event was really damn fun, even though it's really screwed. I don't know how to say this.. but yeah, that's how it was. We were told to be there at 7, and we did absolutely nothing until like 8.15 all the lecturers and people in charge started finding us to tell us the super last min. changes when the event was going to start in half an hour's time and we didnt have any rehearsals before that and we were so afraid to screw up in front of so many people, but... We didn't!!! Ok we did, a little.. but everyone laughed at our mistakes, and it was all in the name of FUN. i had fun.

Came back home and swam, the weather's so crazy that the pool's water was actually LUKE WARM!!!!!! Omggg, just the way I like my soya milk to be. So I was imagining swimming in a biiiigggggg cup of lukewarm soya milk and I felt disgusted. BUT YAYY!!! I FINALLY EXERCISED!!! All the crap food I have been discreetly eating and throwing away the evidence so my mother doesn't find out. Hehehe : D

And my dear sister bought like 300g of famous amous cookies and I WONDER HOW SHE ACTUALLY FINISHED EVERYTHING until left 5 nia, in frigging 3 days?!?!??! I know that's possible, but I don't really eat.. cookies the hardcore way.

It's raining heavily now and I suddenly thought of flower. Thoughts of tidal waves crashing on his ship and everything scare me. Please be okay, flower!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. 7AM IN SCHOOL TMR. FRIIGGGING 7AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??!??????????????????????????/////////

Plans cancelled and postponed todayy cause birthday girl couldnt make it : ( But it's ok!!! I needed a good rest today anyway. I really had a good rest!!!! Had time to make a birthday card and did up cue cards for tmr's event. It's been a long time since I last hosted an event.. and I'm doing it with my favourite boy. : )

I was bored so I went to look through old photo albums and I found this one with all my mom's old photos when she was a teenager. Wah, she really damn hot. and my dad was hot too. Hahahaha now also hot la. hahahahah. I like looking through my childhood photos, cause I never want to forget it. Everytime I ask my mom about her childhood, she forgot alot of things. But I want to remember mine regardless of my age, even when I am in my 40s, 50s, 60s and so on.

Another Sunday

My mom and sis are watching hong kong drama on their computers and it's damn annooyyinggg, I'm reeally starting to get annoyed by the same old actors with bad make up and canto accent, damnnn annooyyyinnngggggg@!&#(*@&!#*(&9

and my mom has been coughing damn badly, and so the house is abit sick-ish, filled with sick air. Sometimes i feel sick when I am at home. I hope everyone will become welll and energetic againn.

weather damnn humid lately, super hottttttt. And we can't really switch on the aircon cause of the sick air. So can you imagine the sick air in my house COMBO together with the bloody weather?!?!??! It's deadly.

K then, in a few mins. , bei bao is coming over my house to do script together for our tuesday event. MOMMY PLS STOP WATCHING THE HONG KONG DRAMAAA, IT'S KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. : (

I felt like a really good friend yesterday. But today, I felt like a really bad daughter. I just left my mom to do grocery shopping alone, ALONE!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. : (

Goodbye, goodbye, good friend, goodbye

I can't believe I actually teared while reading mark's email to me. I REALLY AM GONNA MISS YOU FLOWER!!!!! it's so strange how we actually met and became friends, what a fascinating random phenomenon. and I actually woke up at 4 today just to send him offf with tams and we took the good ol' train. he's gonna be gone for 6 months, so yeah, I hope he will be fine. : )

so yesterday, we hung out at tam's before mark's farewell!!!!!!! wah seriously tams, your oreo cheeesecake is da bombbb I LOVE IT!!!!! we played wii and just lazed around when it was raining heavily outisde, it was really nice and warm. and mark fetched me and zach, i really have phobia taking his car. And the phobia grew even more when he fetched me home last night. WE TOOK ONE HOUR AND TEN MINS TO REACH MY HOUSE!!!!! to figure our way out from bukit batok to choa chu kang, when the train only takes like 2 stops?!?!?!??!?!? I really got damn scared, i mean both of us. HAHAHHAHAHHA BUT it was damn funny to get lost, damn funny. I am gonna miss it.

so i rushed from changi airport to schoool for SB FOP rehearsal, the people there are nice people!!! and went back home and crashed ont he bed for 3 hours and here I am. and I have to go back to school again at 7. T______T today was a long, draining, and sad day.

Met up with my primary school friends after 7 years!!! AND THE STRANGEST THING EVER was that, we weren't even awwkward with each other!!!! and all of our characters are stilll the same as we were 7 year back ago though our looks changed quite a bit! we had like endlesss things to talk, and we're even going out again next week!!!! is this like so cooool or what?!?!? and most of us have friends who are like each other's friends now, it's a really really small world. But what can I say, singapore is small!

then WHIP IT IS A GREAT MOVIE! watched it with saks today!!! WAH WE COUPLE SEATS!!! SO ROMANTIC!!!! we really thought we were going to be the only ones in the theatre, but no :/ but still very little people and i think we made the most noise anyway, hahaha. damn fuuunnn <3

Sunday

So everything ends on a Sunday, whether the week was good or not, depends on how you feel on Sunday. I don't really know what to do on Sundays and I never wanted to do anything on that day anyway. But yeah, most of the time, I feel good. Feels very serene today, the chilly weather and wrapping myself in my fav. snuggly yellow blanket.

Last week, I really had a crappy Sunday cause I had crap thoughts flooding my mind. But this week's good, though the day hasn't ended. There're somethings we've to learn to let them roll when you know nothing good is going to come out of them. No matter how much you like them or desire to have them, wellll... some things are meant to be yours and some things will never be.

friend says:
EAT THIS BITCH _|_
send this
works aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll the time
99% of the people don't reply anymore
1% of them, truly deserves to eat it

Broke because I had kuishinbo for lunch this weeek, $32
Broke because I bought this reeeaaally nice highwaisted pants, $45.90
Broke because I had 2 cups of milk tea this week, $3.80
Broke because I upsized my pon tian nooodles, $4.50
Broke because I had Mcspicy extra value meal for dinner today, $6.75
Broke because I bought identical shirts with IBS2 (it was on sale!!!!), $29.90


OMG i SPENT $122.85 THIS WEEEK. Sian.

Kkkkkk great i am broke. but I had a really good week. : )