All good things must come to an end

Yep, so the time i dread the most HAS COME. It's the end of schoool and the staart of something new- Internship

I have tons of things I want to say, but I think they have already been said. I have never ever regretted getting a raw score L1R5 of 17, and not making it into Junior College cause I am not smart enough. In secondary school, I've always felt I was stupid, not getting good grades and all when everyone else was... but in SP, i've always felt smart in my own ways, that I am actually... talented? Everyone there was talented too, creative, always full of ideas and we did things fearlessly.

And I have made so many dear friends there! The entire DMC family has been like a family, and we still are, im gonna rmb each and everyone of those 100 faces out there. I wouldnt exchange all these memories for anything else. We are going to have class outings, feast on buffets, eat takoyaki and drink happpy lemon and walk through those shops at ion and try on shoes and clothes... its gonna be like the old days. Just that we arent classmates anymore, we are still awesome friends!!!!!

To be honest, I have been feeeling like CRAP these few days, the thought of not going to school and meeting these people actually makes me CRY!

FIRST DAY OF WORK TMR GUYS!!!! All the best and I love you guys from the bottom of my heart.

Why is the world so stingy?

Stupid chicken rice uncle who gives me chicken rice less than its worth of $3, then when I add char shao and I pay $3.50, he slabs me some measely pathetic amount and it makes me upset. I always give him chance and buy chicken with additional char shao, and see whether he will give me extra char shao if I say "Hello! I want white chicken with char shao" in my sweetest voice, and with a wide big smile. I think he's blind and he's deaf, he never seems to look at me, only concentrates on chopping the chicken. But nevermind, I give him chance.

"3.50 please." He says

"THANK YOU!!" I say. Never say thank you back. Knn. NEVERMIND, I give you chance, maybe you will smile back one day to me and say thank you, MAYBE. But like hello, you're the one who's suppose to say thank you!!! But nevermind, I always say thank you, I'm a courteous girl. I always smile, cause I'm a nice girl. Then when I reach home, open the packet. Knn. Its the same pathetic amount of foood, I always eat like a cow. I dont get myself sometimes, I dont like that store I still go buy, BUT WHY?!?? I WANT TO GIVE THE WORLD A CHANCE. A chance to redeem itself, a chance to be nice to people.... just a chance to change and make this world a better place. Omg, I must be out of my mind.

It's true. Its sad. Why everyone so stingy??? Will it kill you to make someone happy in return? Issit so hard? It's not. I hate customer service, I HATE the people in customer service. All rubbish. All bulllshit. Damn angry cause some of these people dont deserve to be in customer service, they are in it because they want to earn money....and serve customers with the worst freaking attitude. No smiles, no thank yous..... SO HORRIBLE. I hate people who are rude, they are like mean. I dont like mean people. no one likes mean people. They must be people with no friends.

Then there's another experiment I did. Everytime I go to school, I take the lift. When people press the open lift door button for me, I always say thank you! SO i decided to try opening the lift door for people one week and see if anyone says thank you. NOBODY SAID!!!!! WHY IS THE WORLD SO STINGY?!?!?! THANK YOU WILLL KILLL YOU AH?!?!?!

I feel very sad. Its just...such a sad and stingy world out there.

When all things fail..

All you really need is food, seriously.

Its my second buffet in two weeks and I'm...stuffed, spoilt and happy and...broke :( But whatever, money isnt the main concern, we can always earn money back. Wah, I talk as if i got alot of money sia..... BUT NO i dont hahahha. I'm a saver, MONEY SAVER, then i splurge eveerything on edible happinesss which feeds me happiness.

Been feeling unnecessarily stressed, and whatever my seniors said to me yesterday scared the hell out of me. But I'm gonnna havta trust myself and just..... be my cheeeery bubbly self during internship and allllll....shalll be fiiiineeeee. There's no room for second guessing, and my seniors who told me scary stuff DIDNT even work at my internship place, everything was just..... whats-heard-from-this-person-who's-working-there, they don't even know cause they never really truly experienced it themselves. But whatever! Im gonnna dooo my bestest and SHIIINEEEEE like the foil holding my favourite fruit tart.

Eating my pa's coconut-milkless curry chicken now, it's awesome, the tornado that happened in my head earlier on ceased and its settling down now. I'm at peace.

feeel like i'm rolling down hillll.....and i might hit the murky waters of the river. it's funny how i worry about my friends being upset and alll, rather than me. And how ironic it is to try my hardest to make everyone happy but make myself the saddest and pathetic living being on earth inside. Why am I crumbling inside? :(

I NEEED THE FORCES OF THE WIND to rollll me back up the hillllll

shhiiiiitttt emo juices, emo posts :'( :'(

running awway makes me feel like a coward

i feeel so small, like a tiny pea mashed up in a can of mushy peas, tucked away in the cupboard. Don't open it, i will spill