It was my first day on Monday and there were two ways I could approach this matter:
1) Act like a overly friendly moron
2) Act like I don't give a f***
AND OF COURSEEE, if you know me, I would be 1) Act like a overly friendly moron. Apparently, office people dont like overly friendly morons, they think we are... morons. Overly friendly morons to them are like, childish people. I mean they would think we are seriously desperate for people's attention, BUT I REALLY WAS!!!! And I would come to that later. What about number 2? Of course you wouldnt want to act like you don't give a f***, who would WANT to talk to you if you pretend nobody in the office existed and you dont socialize?!?! You're gonna be a bloody outcast. Then after one week at work, I have finally evolved into something like,
3) I'm a really coooool and chillll person who looks like I don't give a f*** but I am still really friendly
I can't ignore this overly friendly characteristic in me, I REALLY CANT. It's like, sewn in me, its part of me. SO sometimes, I still get overly excited over stupid things like when I am with my friends like for example, I had an extra fishcake the uncle gave me in my yong tau foo yesterday and I shrieked OUT LOUD unconsciously "YAYY THE UNCLE GAVE ME ONE FREE FISHCAKE!!!!!!" and the evil dutch guy (i will come to him in a bit) glared at me and said "How charming" and I was like oh shit. OK CONTROL YOURSELF YANHAN get a grip. Or like the other time when they asked, "So where shall we eat for lunch?" AND I HADD TO SAY "Oh! What about ION orchard's takoyaki??? :D" And they ignored me :(
There're alot of coffee shops around my area, and its soo bloooody hot i swear, but theres alot of good foood. Oh, I know some nice people int he company would ask you out for lunch since you are a FRESH new person here to make you feel welcomed, but I never got asked out for lunch until like thursday. YES THURSDAY. I wasn't really asked out either, it was just so that this nice boy called Benson asked me to tag along with this two other colleagues, I would think the two other colleagues were still uncomfrotable with me, and so, I was uncomfortable with them as well. But no la, I didnt eat alone either for the past few days before Thursday. I ate with the other intern, Marcus, cause hes always soo bussyyy but I would wait for him still, cause he's one of the nicest people around in the office.
I work in a production company, so naturally EVERYONE is always busy. I broke down on Tuesday and cried on the phone w Sak I remember. It was a cold rainy day, and everything inside me just crumbled. Wassit so difficult to just get someone to just TALK TO ME??? I feel very choked inside when I feel invisible and when I am so friendly myself. Its so difficult :( And then I realized, everyone's too busy to talk to me. As I was a new comer, I hardly have any work to do. But I have work now. Then on Thursday, I began to take things in my stride and tried to accept the fact that people wouldnt warm up to me as quickly as I would to them. Then I slowly talked to people, making random comments... things are getting less and less tense and I am slowly becoming... a really really cool person inside me. I must tame the overly excited jumping bunny inside me, and that I would unleash the overly excited jumping bunny when I see my friends, MUST CONTROL YOURSELF HAN.
The evil dutch guy (EDG)was a tough nut to crack. He made me feel so horrible. If I have explained this story to you, you can jump on to the next part cause I have explained this a gazillion times. EDG is half dutch and half chinese. Marcus is under him, so EDG would always come over to his place and talk to him about things and as our place was smalll.... I COULD SERIOUSLY feeel his intimidating presence. And why is EDG so intimidating???
1) He's seriously very cute. When I first saw him i was like "Eeep!!!" in my heart
2) He has a low booming voice
3) He has an ang moh accent
4) Hes very very very tall
I get super scared and shy when a cute guy is around. And yes, there are quite a few in the office, but no one hangs around the intern square as much as EDG as Marcus is working under him. and hes like 30 years old but crazily young at heart. He does stupid things, and makes fun of you when hes comfortable with you. He makes fun of everrryone in the company cept for me, and I feel left out. WTF I KNOW, FEELING LEFT OUT CAUSE SOMEBODY DOESNT PLAY WITH YOU???? Of cause I felt left out, cause everyone int he office was having fun playing around with EDG, and I wasnt having fun just watching people have fun. I want to HAVE FUN TOO. and he just wouldnt talk to me. Then I was like, ok fiiine, yanhan, he would never talk to you, dont even think about it. UNTIL YESTERDAY
Almost everyone in the office was going for lunch at a restaurant. Actually, it was originally meant for a production crew who did a production together, in the end, end up ALLL the big shots, producers, directors, creative directors everyone went, when they werent suppose to, cause it was meant for people for that particular production team.
Marcus was suppose to go, though he felt really bad for wanting to leave me alone in the office to eat lunch alone (aww hes seriously a nice guy!!! seriously), then he left with them. And I was alone in the office, playing with the computer. THEN MARCUS CAME BACK!!!! He was like "ahhh so awkward, and later got things to do also" THEN YAYY!! I needn't eat lunch alone! Then after that, Benson and the two other colleagues also didnt go cause they felt awkward. So how? WE WENT FOR LUNCH TOGETHER AGAIN.
Then after that Marcus got a call. EDG WANTS TO JOIN US TOO. In my mind I was like NOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo, hes so evil I dont even want to eat with him (actually he isnt very evil, I just like to call him that). But whatever, he came so yep. It wasnt that bad, got to talk to him abit though still awkward. Cause he asked awkward questions like, "Whats your primary school? Whats your secondary school? Whats your current school? Whats your age?" Oh gawd, awkward short questions.
After lunch, I went back to the office and it was still lunch time so I was still fidddling around with the computer going on twitter, to tweet about my lunch but before I could click the TWEET button EDG wanted to borrow my computer and I was like uhm ok, cause I thought it was for some urgent matter. BUT IT WASNT. He hovered over my twitter account AND CLICKED ON IT AND I TWEETED HALFWAY SAYING "HAHAH I cant believe I went for lunch with the evil dutch guy..." and MY VERY FIRST INSTINCT WAS TO??? USE MY HANDS TO COVER THE MONITOR SCREEN. He was like fighting with my hands and saying "LEMME SEE IT LEMMME SEEE IT" and I was like OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! Then yep, he saw it
"HAHAH I cant believe I went for lunch with the evil dutch guy.... What the fuck, so I am the evil dutch guy???? " as he said that, he continued adding on and said, "but hes soo hot" and he tweeted it!!! And he tweeted a couple more saying that hes hot and that I am in love with him. -.- But yeahhh i guessss, this broke the ice for both of us! How strange to break the awkwardness between the two of us. BUT YEP ITS BROKEN.
And I have said so many awful awkward things earlier on, but I want to say the good things. I have got so many people looking after me.
1) Sam
My ultimate sister in the office.Shes my coursemate and a senior of mine who worked there full time after her internship there. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR HER, I wouldnt know what to do without her around. Shes so lovely :) Though I get lost sometimes when shes not around the office when she out for shoot :(
2) Kino
Sam's good friend, whos looking after me too! She helps me alot and ALWAYS helps me whenever I need help. She even gave me a cute companion, a little cute toy, which she blu tacked it on the desk.
3) MARCUS!!!
My another intern companion, we are the only two interns, just that I am more lost and I came in much later than he did. Hes really awsome :) though he very indie, if you know what i mean
4) Chiu Ming
The producer I am under. SHES SO LOVELY!!!! I am so glad to be under the chiense department, so so thankful. I cant be more thankful cause I have her around. :)
5) Sook
she looks after all the production assistants in the office and that includes me, and she helps me also whenever I need help
6) Benson
a really cute boy who likes doraemon too!!!! i really like him :) and he helps me too!!!!
And the rest ofthe people who would smile at me whenever I am at my desk, Thank you. Even the cleaner aunty in the morning, THANK YOU for making the toilet so cleanand wonderful. :)
I would still love to think alll of them are awesome till the end of internship stilll.
AND OF COURSE MY LOVELY 01 CLASSMATES, couldnt have gone through this gruelling first week if not for alll of your encouragement. Thank goodness for twitter. Twitter is awesome for updates from all of you. CANT WAIT TO MEET MY CLASSMATES NEXT WEEEK AGAIN!!! We had such an awesome time yesterday :'D Miss yall like crazy.
WAH SIA SO LONG THIS POST, ok byebye
