I AM NOT DEAD!

At last, the day has come. I thought I would make some REALLY EPIC blog post and share with all of you people here, but i think i kind of lost all the words that I wanna say along the way, or I've shared with with MANY MANY people along the way as welll, people who were always there for me, or supporting me, OMG A GAZILLIONN HEARTS FOR YOUUUU

I was misunderstood, scolded, bullied....whatever bad things that you thought would never happen to me, happened. I met bad people, the mean and cold ones. But of course! I met the loveliest people I would ever meet, my crew mates. So off we went on a 21 day journey, of sleepless nights, aching thighs and arms and backs, carrying heavy things, falling down and getting brusies... we kind of all melted into a pot, like soft gooey warm melted cheese fondue, a close family!

The thing I loved best at work, is going out on shoots with this family, this family which consist of 8 older, strong, fit looking guys plus me and didi, another girl intern from NTU. We look after each other, make fun of each other, had soooooooo much fun laughing and stuffff, but also worked seriously and hard as well!! I'm gonna remember every single one of you, your names, your faces....cause you guys made this internship so memorable for me :)

Noo, this IS the 7th week

I made a mistake!! I thought last week was the 7th week. so!!! yeah!!!! this week was the 7th weeek, only 5 more to go!!!!!!!! time passes so fast, its unbelievable.

There are so many things on my mind like where I shoudl head to after internship. I wish I could go NS and have 2 more years to think HAHAHHA ok maybe not, never. But oh welll, just focusing on doing welll for internship and doing WHATEVER I can to make this production a successful one, jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nurul, my crazy buddy's leaving for aussie :'( Im gonna miss her so much, she's the sweetest :( i wonder who will be sitting beside me next week, heard there's gonna be another new girl!!!! we'lll seeeee......

Its the 7th week

HOW TIME FLIES!!!! The 7th week of internship is over.

The 7th week was one of the most happening weeks for me. So many things happened!!! As production is neearing, we are still int he midst of finding the PERFECT cast. I am so glad we found like 3/4 of it. We left two important roles, one shy boy and one sweet looking girl. Sounds like a really task issnt it? WELL, it isnt.

My director has the perfect vision of these two people in his mind... and so it was difficult. But thankfully, THANKFULLY!!!! We found the big boob girl!!!! YAYYY, and it's.... mad. hahahha, its so funny to associate her w that, BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH MADSY FOR HELPING OUT! It means so much to me. And bringing all the animax girls along for casting, they were such lovely people. I made more new friends!!!! :)

And then, sponsors start responding pretty well. Someone just called my HP to say that they decided to sponsor us western fooood for lunch!!! DAMN AWESOME PEOPLE :') And this stalll who decided to sponsor us makes MAGICAL CHARGRILLED CHICKEN WITH SPAGHETTI, its like the BEST WESTERN FOOD ON EARTH! And they are such a humble little stall, located at a foodcourt near my office. I just went down, had the most MAGNIFICENT dinner, then I just told the aunty that her western food was the best thing I have eaten in this week and she remembered ever since. And then, I thought of them for sponsorship and I was like just randomly asking them... And they said YES! Though only sponsoring for one day, it's definitely better than nothing! I amlooking forward to lunch on that day of filming. :) They are so sweet.

Speaking about food sponsors, Amy, Mark's friend, decided to sponsor us too!!!! For a whopping week or two. Shes so lovely. :') And she makes lovely food. So I dont have to worry so much about lunch during filming now... we cut down so much budget.

Sponsors started responding readily to me, like Converse, Esprit, STAGE, Prima Deli, Nova Furniture, Promod, Fourskin, Pastamania.... I cant be more than thankful to them. THANK YOU SO MUCH :')

And also, I have a lovely cast for this show. :) Just need two more actors......NEED TO FIND THEM. My director was so worried. Then I suddenly thought of asking on Facebook, and many people helped me so readily as welll!!!!! Then I thought of weiwen. His whole family joker one lor. His second brother decided to help me!!!!!! And he almost got the role :( But he cut his hair, so his look was changed :( :( and director didnt like that. Oh welll.... so I went to ask people on the train!!!!!!!!! and i met some lovely people, who decided to help me!!!! :D Then I asked char's friend, Benson, and he agreeed!!!! And then I aske dmy cousin, who's this shy looking cute boy, and he agreeed also!!!!

My couzzie came down today and I missed him so much! Havent seeeen him for weeeks. And he looks so cute!!!!!! I hope he gets chosen, cause I thought he was pretty natural. And hes sucha sweet boy!! He doesnt even LIKE the idea of acting but is so willing to help me out.

:)

Family

Another thing I would like to talk about is, my family. I just realize like, in year 2010, we have gotten even EVEN closer, and I am very thankful for that. I love them w alllll my heart and I am so glad to go back home, and be filled with so much warmth and love. May we be THIS CLOSE, for 2011 and many years to come :)

2011 and stuff

Omgosh, its been 5 weeks for internship!!!!!!!!! That means, 7 more weeks to go, HELLL YEAaaaaaahhhh to the chyeeeaaahhh to the fyeeeeeaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!

During work, I have been always in this little bubble. Im kind of numbed to the fact that, I have experienced all the bad experiences that if a tornado were to come hit my company down, I wouldn't run, I would just sit in the chair and stone. HAHAH OK tt sounds bad, but okay, I haven't been the most positive ray of sunshine, neither am I the gloomy cloud. I am like, in the middle. Sure, there are definitely nice experiences, and the bad ones? I learn stuff from them. Wow, now I sound positive! Whoo hoo!

Production's commencing in 2 week's time, and we havent confirmed the cast, some suppliers stufff...... I feel like giving up, BUT NO I SHALL NOT! My director is one tough cookie, and I have to be a tough cookie just like him. We have our differences, like how he speaks chinese so fluently, but I am getting there! And he's very last minute, and I dont like being last minute. This is gonna be a hellllava riiiiide in 2011!!!!!

Speaking about 2011, I havent really made any plans yet. I am planless little girl. One thing for sure, I do want to study. Might want to study communication studies in NTU, if they accept me!!!! Pls pls NTU accept me, I'm the bubbliest bubble of brightspark you can ever find!!!!! If you dont accept me for comm studies, I shall haunt you back NTU, to apply for Visual Comm in the school of Arts, Design and Media!!!!!

Art is something I have always wanted to do like a REALLLY long time ago. I mean, I like art!!! and design and stuffff. Even, mass comm wasnt what I wanted to do, I wanted to do creative media design in SP or like visual comm in TP, but my uncle thought the industry for design is pretty stagnant. I dont know, maybe!!!! This is the one chance thats pushing me to do something I like to do!!!! And maybe I will do it. I am just quite hesitant on producing a portfolio, SO MANY THINGS TO INCLUDE!

One thing for sure in year 2011, I am very determined to get into a local u. And I hope my determination gets me there!!!! Yeah. yeah!! :)

1 week down, 11 more to go

When my father said work is gonna be like a jungle, he wasn't kidding. Ahhh, must start this post with a wise metaphor. Even working at FOX was pretty ok, cause i never really had a chance to interact alot with my colleagues, i satisfy my socializing cravings by talking to customers and yada yada. Now, I am stuck in an office, with really intimidating people. And if you don't talk, no one's gonna talk to you. Even if you talk, it doesnt guarantee you that the person wants to talk to you.

It was my first day on Monday and there were two ways I could approach this matter:

1) Act like a overly friendly moron

2) Act like I don't give a f***

AND OF COURSEEE, if you know me, I would be 1) Act like a overly friendly moron. Apparently, office people dont like overly friendly morons, they think we are... morons. Overly friendly morons to them are like, childish people. I mean they would think we are seriously desperate for people's attention, BUT I REALLY WAS!!!! And I would come to that later. What about number 2? Of course you wouldnt want to act like you don't give a f***, who would WANT to talk to you if you pretend nobody in the office existed and you dont socialize?!?! You're gonna be a bloody outcast. Then after one week at work, I have finally evolved into something like,

3) I'm a really coooool and chillll person who looks like I don't give a f*** but I am still really friendly

I can't ignore this overly friendly characteristic in me, I REALLY CANT. It's like, sewn in me, its part of me. SO sometimes, I still get overly excited over stupid things like when I am with my friends like for example, I had an extra fishcake the uncle gave me in my yong tau foo yesterday and I shrieked OUT LOUD unconsciously "YAYY THE UNCLE GAVE ME ONE FREE FISHCAKE!!!!!!" and the evil dutch guy (i will come to him in a bit) glared at me and said "How charming" and I was like oh shit. OK CONTROL YOURSELF YANHAN get a grip. Or like the other time when they asked, "So where shall we eat for lunch?" AND I HADD TO SAY "Oh! What about ION orchard's takoyaki??? :D" And they ignored me :(

There're alot of coffee shops around my area, and its soo bloooody hot i swear, but theres alot of good foood. Oh, I know some nice people int he company would ask you out for lunch since you are a FRESH new person here to make you feel welcomed, but I never got asked out for lunch until like thursday. YES THURSDAY. I wasn't really asked out either, it was just so that this nice boy called Benson asked me to tag along with this two other colleagues, I would think the two other colleagues were still uncomfrotable with me, and so, I was uncomfortable with them as well. But no la, I didnt eat alone either for the past few days before Thursday. I ate with the other intern, Marcus, cause hes always soo bussyyy but I would wait for him still, cause he's one of the nicest people around in the office.

I work in a production company, so naturally EVERYONE is always busy. I broke down on Tuesday and cried on the phone w Sak I remember. It was a cold rainy day, and everything inside me just crumbled. Wassit so difficult to just get someone to just TALK TO ME??? I feel very choked inside when I feel invisible and when I am so friendly myself. Its so difficult :( And then I realized, everyone's too busy to talk to me. As I was a new comer, I hardly have any work to do. But I have work now. Then on Thursday, I began to take things in my stride and tried to accept the fact that people wouldnt warm up to me as quickly as I would to them. Then I slowly talked to people, making random comments... things are getting less and less tense and I am slowly becoming... a really really cool person inside me. I must tame the overly excited jumping bunny inside me, and that I would unleash the overly excited jumping bunny when I see my friends, MUST CONTROL YOURSELF HAN.

The evil dutch guy (EDG)was a tough nut to crack. He made me feel so horrible. If I have explained this story to you, you can jump on to the next part cause I have explained this a gazillion times. EDG is half dutch and half chinese. Marcus is under him, so EDG would always come over to his place and talk to him about things and as our place was smalll.... I COULD SERIOUSLY feeel his intimidating presence. And why is EDG so intimidating???

1) He's seriously very cute. When I first saw him i was like "Eeep!!!" in my heart

2) He has a low booming voice

3) He has an ang moh accent

4) Hes very very very tall

I get super scared and shy when a cute guy is around. And yes, there are quite a few in the office, but no one hangs around the intern square as much as EDG as Marcus is working under him. and hes like 30 years old but crazily young at heart. He does stupid things, and makes fun of you when hes comfortable with you. He makes fun of everrryone in the company cept for me, and I feel left out. WTF I KNOW, FEELING LEFT OUT CAUSE SOMEBODY DOESNT PLAY WITH YOU???? Of cause I felt left out, cause everyone int he office was having fun playing around with EDG, and I wasnt having fun just watching people have fun. I want to HAVE FUN TOO. and he just wouldnt talk to me. Then I was like, ok fiiine, yanhan, he would never talk to you, dont even think about it. UNTIL YESTERDAY

Almost everyone in the office was going for lunch at a restaurant. Actually, it was originally meant for a production crew who did a production together, in the end, end up ALLL the big shots, producers, directors, creative directors everyone went, when they werent suppose to, cause it was meant for people for that particular production team.

Marcus was suppose to go, though he felt really bad for wanting to leave me alone in the office to eat lunch alone (aww hes seriously a nice guy!!! seriously), then he left with them. And I was alone in the office, playing with the computer. THEN MARCUS CAME BACK!!!! He was like "ahhh so awkward, and later got things to do also" THEN YAYY!! I needn't eat lunch alone! Then after that, Benson and the two other colleagues also didnt go cause they felt awkward. So how? WE WENT FOR LUNCH TOGETHER AGAIN.

Then after that Marcus got a call. EDG WANTS TO JOIN US TOO. In my mind I was like NOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo, hes so evil I dont even want to eat with him (actually he isnt very evil, I just like to call him that). But whatever, he came so yep. It wasnt that bad, got to talk to him abit though still awkward. Cause he asked awkward questions like, "Whats your primary school? Whats your secondary school? Whats your current school? Whats your age?" Oh gawd, awkward short questions.

After lunch, I went back to the office and it was still lunch time so I was still fidddling around with the computer going on twitter, to tweet about my lunch but before I could click the TWEET button EDG wanted to borrow my computer and I was like uhm ok, cause I thought it was for some urgent matter. BUT IT WASNT. He hovered over my twitter account AND CLICKED ON IT AND I TWEETED HALFWAY SAYING "HAHAH I cant believe I went for lunch with the evil dutch guy..." and MY VERY FIRST INSTINCT WAS TO??? USE MY HANDS TO COVER THE MONITOR SCREEN. He was like fighting with my hands and saying "LEMME SEE IT LEMMME SEEE IT" and I was like OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! Then yep, he saw it

"HAHAH I cant believe I went for lunch with the evil dutch guy.... What the fuck, so I am the evil dutch guy???? " as he said that, he continued adding on and said, "but hes soo hot" and he tweeted it!!! And he tweeted a couple more saying that hes hot and that I am in love with him. -.- But yeahhh i guessss, this broke the ice for both of us! How strange to break the awkwardness between the two of us. BUT YEP ITS BROKEN.

And I have said so many awful awkward things earlier on, but I want to say the good things. I have got so many people looking after me.

1) Sam

My ultimate sister in the office.Shes my coursemate and a senior of mine who worked there full time after her internship there. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR HER, I wouldnt know what to do without her around. Shes so lovely :) Though I get lost sometimes when shes not around the office when she out for shoot :(

2) Kino

Sam's good friend, whos looking after me too! She helps me alot and ALWAYS helps me whenever I need help. She even gave me a cute companion, a little cute toy, which she blu tacked it on the desk.

3) MARCUS!!!

My another intern companion, we are the only two interns, just that I am more lost and I came in much later than he did. Hes really awsome :) though he very indie, if you know what i mean

4) Chiu Ming

The producer I am under. SHES SO LOVELY!!!! I am so glad to be under the chiense department, so so thankful. I cant be more thankful cause I have her around. :)

5) Sook

she looks after all the production assistants in the office and that includes me, and she helps me also whenever I need help

6) Benson

a really cute boy who likes doraemon too!!!! i really like him :) and he helps me too!!!!

And the rest ofthe people who would smile at me whenever I am at my desk, Thank you. Even the cleaner aunty in the morning, THANK YOU for making the toilet so cleanand wonderful. :)

I would still love to think alll of them are awesome till the end of internship stilll.

AND OF COURSE MY LOVELY 01 CLASSMATES, couldnt have gone through this gruelling first week if not for alll of your encouragement. Thank goodness for twitter. Twitter is awesome for updates from all of you. CANT WAIT TO MEET MY CLASSMATES NEXT WEEEK AGAIN!!! We had such an awesome time yesterday :'D Miss yall like crazy.

WAH SIA SO LONG THIS POST, ok byebye

All good things must come to an end

Yep, so the time i dread the most HAS COME. It's the end of schoool and the staart of something new- Internship

I have tons of things I want to say, but I think they have already been said. I have never ever regretted getting a raw score L1R5 of 17, and not making it into Junior College cause I am not smart enough. In secondary school, I've always felt I was stupid, not getting good grades and all when everyone else was... but in SP, i've always felt smart in my own ways, that I am actually... talented? Everyone there was talented too, creative, always full of ideas and we did things fearlessly.

And I have made so many dear friends there! The entire DMC family has been like a family, and we still are, im gonna rmb each and everyone of those 100 faces out there. I wouldnt exchange all these memories for anything else. We are going to have class outings, feast on buffets, eat takoyaki and drink happpy lemon and walk through those shops at ion and try on shoes and clothes... its gonna be like the old days. Just that we arent classmates anymore, we are still awesome friends!!!!!

To be honest, I have been feeeling like CRAP these few days, the thought of not going to school and meeting these people actually makes me CRY!

FIRST DAY OF WORK TMR GUYS!!!! All the best and I love you guys from the bottom of my heart.

Why is the world so stingy?

Stupid chicken rice uncle who gives me chicken rice less than its worth of $3, then when I add char shao and I pay $3.50, he slabs me some measely pathetic amount and it makes me upset. I always give him chance and buy chicken with additional char shao, and see whether he will give me extra char shao if I say "Hello! I want white chicken with char shao" in my sweetest voice, and with a wide big smile. I think he's blind and he's deaf, he never seems to look at me, only concentrates on chopping the chicken. But nevermind, I give him chance.

"3.50 please." He says

"THANK YOU!!" I say. Never say thank you back. Knn. NEVERMIND, I give you chance, maybe you will smile back one day to me and say thank you, MAYBE. But like hello, you're the one who's suppose to say thank you!!! But nevermind, I always say thank you, I'm a courteous girl. I always smile, cause I'm a nice girl. Then when I reach home, open the packet. Knn. Its the same pathetic amount of foood, I always eat like a cow. I dont get myself sometimes, I dont like that store I still go buy, BUT WHY?!?? I WANT TO GIVE THE WORLD A CHANCE. A chance to redeem itself, a chance to be nice to people.... just a chance to change and make this world a better place. Omg, I must be out of my mind.

It's true. Its sad. Why everyone so stingy??? Will it kill you to make someone happy in return? Issit so hard? It's not. I hate customer service, I HATE the people in customer service. All rubbish. All bulllshit. Damn angry cause some of these people dont deserve to be in customer service, they are in it because they want to earn money....and serve customers with the worst freaking attitude. No smiles, no thank yous..... SO HORRIBLE. I hate people who are rude, they are like mean. I dont like mean people. no one likes mean people. They must be people with no friends.

Then there's another experiment I did. Everytime I go to school, I take the lift. When people press the open lift door button for me, I always say thank you! SO i decided to try opening the lift door for people one week and see if anyone says thank you. NOBODY SAID!!!!! WHY IS THE WORLD SO STINGY?!?!?! THANK YOU WILLL KILLL YOU AH?!?!?!

I feel very sad. Its just...such a sad and stingy world out there.

When all things fail..

All you really need is food, seriously.

Its my second buffet in two weeks and I'm...stuffed, spoilt and happy and...broke :( But whatever, money isnt the main concern, we can always earn money back. Wah, I talk as if i got alot of money sia..... BUT NO i dont hahahha. I'm a saver, MONEY SAVER, then i splurge eveerything on edible happinesss which feeds me happiness.

Been feeling unnecessarily stressed, and whatever my seniors said to me yesterday scared the hell out of me. But I'm gonnna havta trust myself and just..... be my cheeeery bubbly self during internship and allllll....shalll be fiiiineeeee. There's no room for second guessing, and my seniors who told me scary stuff DIDNT even work at my internship place, everything was just..... whats-heard-from-this-person-who's-working-there, they don't even know cause they never really truly experienced it themselves. But whatever! Im gonnna dooo my bestest and SHIIINEEEEE like the foil holding my favourite fruit tart.

Eating my pa's coconut-milkless curry chicken now, it's awesome, the tornado that happened in my head earlier on ceased and its settling down now. I'm at peace.

feeel like i'm rolling down hillll.....and i might hit the murky waters of the river. it's funny how i worry about my friends being upset and alll, rather than me. And how ironic it is to try my hardest to make everyone happy but make myself the saddest and pathetic living being on earth inside. Why am I crumbling inside? :(

I NEEED THE FORCES OF THE WIND to rollll me back up the hillllll

shhiiiiitttt emo juices, emo posts :'( :'(

running awway makes me feel like a coward

i feeel so small, like a tiny pea mashed up in a can of mushy peas, tucked away in the cupboard. Don't open it, i will spill

My comfort things

1. Yellow blankie

2. Sashimi

3. Pokka green tea

Basketball

The ball is in my court, I don't know what to do with it. I know I kinda wanna play with the basketball, BUT WHAT IF I LOSE? I'm bad at basketball.

Then I don't play it, I sit on the bench and watch other people. Then the wind comes and the ball starts drifting away...slowly. Then I think, welll! If I am meant to play basketball, the basketball will come back to me, I wouldn't need to play it now. I don't care about it, BUT IT KEEPS ROLLING BACK TO ME. I never wanted to play basketball cause I've always thought, I'm not good enough to play it. I pick it up and throw it into another court, but it rolls back to me, every time.

And the ball's back in my court again

School is not cool.

Omgoshhhh, this semester has been the most boring thing that has ever happpened on this planet. With only two modules and two of the most boring lecturers......SAAAVE USSSSS :( sigh.

Chunks of things in my soup

Welll, I havent blogged for a long time!!!! Im gonna blog about yesterday, about this msn convo i had with bei, it was like random and sudden, like always, like any other day, actually come to think of it, i talk to him every single day.

Just that yesterday, it was on a sudden... sad topic. We talked about bullies and being different and all, and i felt so sad,and if we were to talk about this over ice cream, i would have really bawled like siao.

Im damn mean, but whatever

lady on the phone: helloo, could you help me do a survey?

me: on what?

lady: on financial statuses

me: uhm, no

lady: why not?

me: cause i'm not interested

lady: can i get your parents to do it for me?

me: they are not at home

lady: should i call back later?

me: no you shouldnt

lady: why not?

me: they wouldnt be interested too

lady: ok, i will just call back later ok?

me: NO DONT CALL BACK



omg stupid lady

My jolly holi wolly

YAY Im back from my 3 day escapade to KLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl, i mean KL. We went there cause mommy had some free hotel accomodation. We ate alot and i enjoyed it sooo much cause I spent it w the fam!!!!!! And I love my fam. We love each other so much that all four of us slept on ONE KING SIZED bed cause we only had one room, one bed. I CANT BELIEVE WE DID THAT but yeah we did it. I felt homesick the minute I reached that place and it was weird, cause it was only 3 days and my family was there, but i reallly miissssed my beeeddddd and blankie.

Work for another 2 more weeks!!!!! I cant wait for work to end, btw im still at the ion outlet! they transferred me back, hahahha. I. CANT. WAAAAIITT

My poor couzie

Last friday night my couzie got knocked down by a taxi when he was crossing the road correectly, with the green man and all!! We only got to visit him on saturday. When we arrived, only my uncle was there cause couzie had to be sent to have his head stitched up. And we waited for at least 2 hours, but we all spent the time talking about my couzie's school problems and alll. He's a smart boy, never studied for his o levels and got a LR15 of 12, and got into tampines JC and he's reaally really good in tennis. And this year, is his A level year and its only like a few months away and this accident had to happen :(

Couzie got wheeled in from his 30 over stitches on his head. I got a shock when I saw him and tears instantly welled up my eyes. My mom, sis and grandma started crying as well. He had wounds all over him, his eyes were swelled up like eggs and his head was wrapped up, he hands were filled with deep scratches, patchy deep red. His nose was swollen and had scratches all over it as well. But the lucky thing was that his cheeks and forehead were spared from scratches. His lips suffered from deep black scratches, like the wounds were black, and he prolly got them when his teeth sunk into them during the accident.

My uncle also said couzie suffered from slight amnesia, he couldnt rmb anything of this accident and why he ended up inthe hospital. He looked so scared, i could see it from his eyes cause tears were brimming his red eyes as well. Then I held his hand, it was cold and there were so many injuries on them. :( :( Poor couzie :(:( But i guess hes SUPER LUCKY, to have survived this with his brain unaffected from injuries and that he's still alive.

this holiday has been one of the most fulfilling holidays i ever had!!! cause of work partially and just hanging out with the people i love. I feel like i'm secretly blessed. Like how I was suppose to be working for topshop and plans were changed and i was made to work at FOX instead. First few days of work were never easy, getting lost, communication barriers w people... but the people there were really accomodating, especially my supervisor, she say the nicest encouraging things to me and I get my breaks and get to leave work on the dot. I'm gonna miss ION orchard's FOX, no matter how much I complained and whined.

It was my last day yesterday and I finalllyy got to properly talk to my other filipino colleague, cause i was doing the night shift w him and towards the end of the day, he was giving me clothes to try on and i was playing dresss up with theclothes and he let me sneak in Happy Lemon to drink during work!!! damn awesome, gonna misss takoyaki, fishball noodles and happy lemon.

But! Im gonna work at Suntec's FOX now!!! Though I dont think I would work for long...especially when school's starting soon.

Monday

Omg, had the most awesome sleeeeeep!!!!!!!! I really think after having a baby in the family, my grandma's getting jollier by the week. I can't talk to babies very welll, my pa's very goood at it though, he makes all the sound effects like pew pew pew zooooooom. I really really like my baby cousin tooo, shes the tiniest cupcake in the family now and brings so much joy every week.