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I dreamt that my.. pa died last night. Omg, I cried so much so much in my dream, that when I woke up, my eyes hurt but there were no tears.

The minute I woke up, I quickly ran into my parents' room to see if he was there, only mommy was sleeping soundly, he wasn't there. Tears started REALLY brimming my eyes, and I started to panic. then I smelt coffee.

Slowly, I tip toed to the kitchen cause I didn't want him to see me and know that I am awake, he was there! Making breakfast for everyone, as usual, like any other day. Oh shit, as I am typing this, tears are streaming down my cheeks. It was a really really heartbreaking nightmare, I never ever want to lose my pa. Never ever. Really scared the shit out of me. :'(

Our secret plan

conversing w jit on microsoft word hhahah


We celebrating where?

I was thinking of in the train

Like a random RANDOM one

U cant light cake wawd

Uhm, maybe I leave first

Thenn

I take the train to clementi

Then wait for someone to cue me that the next train theya re in

Then I hop on to it

Then BY SURPRISE!! I will seee everyone

I will get everything done… by then

Maybe someone can go with me first

But then shd celebratw with the class 1st wad

Wei rong they all wanna come also

Like tag along

Had QUIZNOsss for lunch today. After eating that, I realize how much subway sucks. this is goooooooooooooooooooooooood. (Y) and I realize I am pretty goood with surprises today!!!! happee birthday my baby : )

Final year project is pretty screwed. Screwed project managed by stupid old saggy whiney demanding people, screwed project which our module coordinator just abandoned us today and left for her family problems instead (and I understand but still inevitably sad), screwed project which is making ALL OF US feel so unmotivated, and hopeless. I don't even feel a sense of optimism in this at all. : ( I really hope our batch of juniors don't have to go through this shit that all of us are going through now.

My father has something against those stupid old saggy whiney demanding lecturers and staff in my school. I have too. you guys suck. Nobody likes you alll. It's so terribly sad : (

Alot of stuff were running through my mind. And yeah, I think I miss hanging out with you (you read this space) too! If only everything was like last time.. :/ I realize I stopped making time for people, and start coming up with excuses not to meet people, and it's deadly. Somehow, I like to be alone now and I like to stay at home alot, like watching tv and staring into space or the sky. Somehow I feel like I have lost a part of me, but I'm still me. you know what i mean?!?? Hopefully it's gonna be a passing phase...

and I made oreo cheesecake w my sista last night! IT IS DELISH!!!!!!!!! and my sista is in this crazy korean moood. Omg, she has caught it. SHE HAS CAUGHT THE KOREAN BUG.

It was friday night and I went to ww's house cause he wanted to watch 500 days of summer. His youngest brother took a pillow and rested his head on my lap while I brushed his soft hair. It was a good, tiring friday night. Nice enough to end off the week. : )

SO muchhh things to doooo, and yet I am not doing them. The only days I look forward to are tuesdays and fridays cause there's only one class for those days. But I lovee friday the most, I love radio classes man!!!! seriously. hanging out int he studio and recording sounds and scripts and stufff, and I love the radio class people.

oh!! and I'm in campus radio now and the YOG volunteer thingy!! I am really really quite psyched. I am gonna make year 3 really really really really REALLY epic

I am super hungry now cause I didn't eat my dinner! and no I am no trying to lose weight, I was just fulllll from all the tako yaki and yaki soba... OMG I CANT GET ENOUGH OF JAPANESE FOOD AND JUST... FOOD, really. I am getting a headache from my hunger but I don't really want to eat stuff now cause yeah I just.. don't.

I was suppose to make cute oreo cheesecake cupcakes tonight BUT NOOO, didn't buy enough cream cheese. : ( DARNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!@#)(@*(!#*!@

School's beeen good and busy! I feel alot smarter these days. I don't really know why. I don't normally feel smart. I feel normal. BUT YA. feeling smart is good.

I saved a snail today, I think that's the most happening thing that happened to me today

it felt strange, cause I've been mad busy for the past few days/weeks and today, was like nothing at all cause radio class was cancelled. so I stayed at home and watched lots of things and then I felt like something was wrong. oh yeah. I still have assignments!!!! ahh they can wait.

A few days ago

It's raining heavily now and the weather is super humid and it's sooo daaarrnnn hotttttt.

on wednesday, went for comperes meeting with the new juniors! then went to udders with sak, jit and messiah cause messiah's friend works there and we got 20% discount!!!! it's been a long time since i last sat down for ice cream and just.. talking. It was nice. : )

there's nothing much to talk about other days except that it was alll about school work and stuff.

and I cut my hair! and fringe.

new hair ^ ^

I talked to flower today on the phone just now!

Pitch!!

Wow.. so the final pitch is finalllyyy over. Although we didn't win, I felt like alll of us were winners! We had two teams tied in for second, and we're one of them! and we got $300, haven't really thought of how we're going to spend it.

It's so so scary to be one of the 3 presenters of your team, cause it's the feeling of not wanting to screw up so badly and there're so many important people around watching us like some top industry players, lecturers, awesome school mates and your team mates, and the spot light hitting on you where you couldn't see anyone but you know all the attention is on you. BUT I AM SO GLAD IT'S OVER NOW!!!!!! and we got to talk to people frm the industry and stufff, it was a really, really, really good experience. I felt like I was 30 years old, I just felt old and matured and grown up. It's a really weird feeling. and today I woke up, it felt like yesterday was like a dream, but it wasn't. Oh welll. it was cooooooooool. : )

Am online now, only because I'm waiting for any updated slides or anything for the presentation tmr. SO TIRED PLS!!!!! have been staying back in school almost every day for rehearsals for the final pitch and waiting for other groups.... Omg, this routine is sick.

AND ALTHOUGH EVERY DAY WAS SO DRAINING AND WHATEVER, today was the ultimate bomb. I SO TOTALLY DIDNT REGRET GOING FOR TODAY'S CONNECT EVENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 THE FOOD WAS <3 <3, AND PEOPLE WERE <3 <3 AS ALWAYS. shit, I really really love my batch people toooo toooooo much. They are seriously too awesome. I love random hugs when we see each other and sudden outburst of laughter or just waving frantically at each other or shouting each other's name or giving weird names to each other. Aiyah, I LOVE THE YEAR 3s!!!!!! <3

Ok!

So, I fell sick on the first day of the week and was feeling absolutely horrendous the whole entire day.. and then!!! my uncle called to say that my aunt has delivered!!!!! it's a baby giirlll!!! and there she is over there.

after that, me and my sister went to my grandma's house to have dinner and then my dad picked us up to Thomson Medical Centre to visit my new cousin!! That place is amazing, like once you step inside the maternity ward you feel instant.. BLISS. and she was so small, like one and half loaf of bread. Her english name hasnt been decided.. but her chinese name has, hello ruixi!!!!!

Mmmmm

I had a really hearty breakfast today!!!! Like what a quote says, eat your breafast like a king, and I sure did. Had beehoon with runny egg and fishcake (runny eggs and fishcake combo!!! ), and then chee kueh (i love those oily circular thingss) and then a bowl of hot tau huey!!! ULTIMATE GREASE BOMB (cept for the tau huey) but soooo gooooood.

and then I had a hearty, hearty dinner. My ah pa whipped up some stir-fried udon with shitake mushrooms, ginger and garlic. FRIGGING HELL JUST MUSHROOMS GINGER AND GARLIC AND IT MADE ME GO CRRRAAAAZEEHH like a wild child. His current obsession is now udon, after eating some really goood udon last week from some japanese restaurant. that's how good my ah pa is.

and I am excited to eat at my grandma's tmr! I can't wait to seee what she's cooking. Her springrolls always spring me up, and the thought of sesame oil coated chicken slipping into my mouth is making me so hungry now. Oh shit. I realize I keep blogging about food and school. bear with me people!!!!

FYP

FYP PRESENTATION IS FINAAALLLYY OVERR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we went home late last night, cause we were the very last team to present! and elaine's the presenter before me, and she's damnn funnny she's forever making me laugh, and during her presentation I HAD TO REALLY SINK MY FINGER NAILS into my poor hands so that I could refrain from laughing cause I was the next presenter and I didnt want to screw our entire team up like how I screwed my presentation for EOF by laughing through 3/4 of my presentation... AND I DIDNT LAUGH!!!! I felt all clammy and cold just waiting for our turn to present and my mouth was stiffened to even break into a smile. and after everything, I thought all hopes were lost... and everyone was in a pretty sian mood cause we thought we didn't do very welll...

AND TODAY WHEN I CHECKED MY EMAILLLL, I REALIZED WE'RE ONE OF THE TOP 3 TEAMS TO PRESENT THE PITCH TO OUR CLIENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh. my. gosh. I feel like I could do anything right now. (Y) OUTREACH TEAM A!!!!