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I dreamt that my.. pa died last night. Omg, I cried so much so much in my dream, that when I woke up, my eyes hurt but there were no tears.

The minute I woke up, I quickly ran into my parents' room to see if he was there, only mommy was sleeping soundly, he wasn't there. Tears started REALLY brimming my eyes, and I started to panic. then I smelt coffee.

Slowly, I tip toed to the kitchen cause I didn't want him to see me and know that I am awake, he was there! Making breakfast for everyone, as usual, like any other day. Oh shit, as I am typing this, tears are streaming down my cheeks. It was a really really heartbreaking nightmare, I never ever want to lose my pa. Never ever. Really scared the shit out of me. :'(