Your stare

Somehow I can never forget the way you look at me, I dont think you know it, cause you do it subconsciously.

Its like the time when you were sitting in front of me in class, and you would randomly turn your head around and just, stare at me, for no good reason when I asked you why. And when teacher made a joke and everyone laughed, you would always turn and see if i was laughing and you would laugh if i laughed, and if i didnt laugh you would ask me why, but the reason was obvious cause... it wasnt funny to me? Or the time when you were sitting beside me, and you stared me, with your mucus dripping down your nose cause you always had morning sinus and I would always have to give you tissue. During those times when we sat together, we hardly talked anyway, but i just know you were and still are a really good starer. And you would walk funnily and you would laugh really really loud and you were always the loud one. You were a smart boy, like, good in almost every subject and you had a really cute handwriting like a girl's.

but that night, you hardly laughed or smiled, maybe because i wasn't really a funny person or maybe, you know, we never understood each other. We grew and we changed. You have really big arms now, which remindsme of a pokemon, machoke, the one with really big arms. And you have ugly short hair, but i don't blame you, cause it wasnt your fault when you had to cut it in the army. But you were always cute and really nice teeth, I have always thought you were cute since day 1. But i kinda liked your company, even though we were silent at some points. And when you told me you have always thought i was pretty, it melted my heart. when you stared at me with your kinda stare again, I couldn't look into your eyes and you were so frustrated and said "LOOK INTO MY EYES!!!" and i laughed and you said "Ok maybe staring would be easier, stare at me." But I couldn't do it cause it would make me wannna mess up and rufffle your short bristle-ish hair and hug you and say OMG YOU ARE SOOO CUUUUUTE. And when i grow up, this will always be part of me, cause you;ve been in my life for a really long time.