Alot of stuff were running through my mind. And yeah, I think I miss hanging out with you (you read this space) too! If only everything was like last time.. :/ I realize I stopped making time for people, and start coming up with excuses not to meet people, and it's deadly. Somehow, I like to be alone now and I like to stay at home alot, like watching tv and staring into space or the sky. Somehow I feel like I have lost a part of me, but I'm still me. you know what i mean?!?? Hopefully it's gonna be a passing phase...

and I made oreo cheesecake w my sista last night! IT IS DELISH!!!!!!!!! and my sista is in this crazy korean moood. Omg, she has caught it. SHE HAS CAUGHT THE KOREAN BUG.

It was friday night and I went to ww's house cause he wanted to watch 500 days of summer. His youngest brother took a pillow and rested his head on my lap while I brushed his soft hair. It was a good, tiring friday night. Nice enough to end off the week. : )

SO muchhh things to doooo, and yet I am not doing them. The only days I look forward to are tuesdays and fridays cause there's only one class for those days. But I lovee friday the most, I love radio classes man!!!! seriously. hanging out int he studio and recording sounds and scripts and stufff, and I love the radio class people.

oh!! and I'm in campus radio now and the YOG volunteer thingy!! I am really really quite psyched. I am gonna make year 3 really really really really REALLY epic

I am super hungry now cause I didn't eat my dinner! and no I am no trying to lose weight, I was just fulllll from all the tako yaki and yaki soba... OMG I CANT GET ENOUGH OF JAPANESE FOOD AND JUST... FOOD, really. I am getting a headache from my hunger but I don't really want to eat stuff now cause yeah I just.. don't.

I was suppose to make cute oreo cheesecake cupcakes tonight BUT NOOO, didn't buy enough cream cheese. : ( DARNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!@#)(@*(!#*!@

School's beeen good and busy! I feel alot smarter these days. I don't really know why. I don't normally feel smart. I feel normal. BUT YA. feeling smart is good.

I saved a snail today, I think that's the most happening thing that happened to me today

it felt strange, cause I've been mad busy for the past few days/weeks and today, was like nothing at all cause radio class was cancelled. so I stayed at home and watched lots of things and then I felt like something was wrong. oh yeah. I still have assignments!!!! ahh they can wait.

A few days ago

It's raining heavily now and the weather is super humid and it's sooo daaarrnnn hotttttt.

on wednesday, went for comperes meeting with the new juniors! then went to udders with sak, jit and messiah cause messiah's friend works there and we got 20% discount!!!! it's been a long time since i last sat down for ice cream and just.. talking. It was nice. : )

there's nothing much to talk about other days except that it was alll about school work and stuff.

and I cut my hair! and fringe.

new hair ^ ^

I talked to flower today on the phone just now!

Pitch!!

Wow.. so the final pitch is finalllyyy over. Although we didn't win, I felt like alll of us were winners! We had two teams tied in for second, and we're one of them! and we got $300, haven't really thought of how we're going to spend it.

It's so so scary to be one of the 3 presenters of your team, cause it's the feeling of not wanting to screw up so badly and there're so many important people around watching us like some top industry players, lecturers, awesome school mates and your team mates, and the spot light hitting on you where you couldn't see anyone but you know all the attention is on you. BUT I AM SO GLAD IT'S OVER NOW!!!!!! and we got to talk to people frm the industry and stufff, it was a really, really, really good experience. I felt like I was 30 years old, I just felt old and matured and grown up. It's a really weird feeling. and today I woke up, it felt like yesterday was like a dream, but it wasn't. Oh welll. it was cooooooooool. : )

Am online now, only because I'm waiting for any updated slides or anything for the presentation tmr. SO TIRED PLS!!!!! have been staying back in school almost every day for rehearsals for the final pitch and waiting for other groups.... Omg, this routine is sick.

AND ALTHOUGH EVERY DAY WAS SO DRAINING AND WHATEVER, today was the ultimate bomb. I SO TOTALLY DIDNT REGRET GOING FOR TODAY'S CONNECT EVENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 THE FOOD WAS <3 <3, AND PEOPLE WERE <3 <3 AS ALWAYS. shit, I really really love my batch people toooo toooooo much. They are seriously too awesome. I love random hugs when we see each other and sudden outburst of laughter or just waving frantically at each other or shouting each other's name or giving weird names to each other. Aiyah, I LOVE THE YEAR 3s!!!!!! <3

Ok!

So, I fell sick on the first day of the week and was feeling absolutely horrendous the whole entire day.. and then!!! my uncle called to say that my aunt has delivered!!!!! it's a baby giirlll!!! and there she is over there.

after that, me and my sister went to my grandma's house to have dinner and then my dad picked us up to Thomson Medical Centre to visit my new cousin!! That place is amazing, like once you step inside the maternity ward you feel instant.. BLISS. and she was so small, like one and half loaf of bread. Her english name hasnt been decided.. but her chinese name has, hello ruixi!!!!!

Mmmmm

I had a really hearty breakfast today!!!! Like what a quote says, eat your breafast like a king, and I sure did. Had beehoon with runny egg and fishcake (runny eggs and fishcake combo!!! ), and then chee kueh (i love those oily circular thingss) and then a bowl of hot tau huey!!! ULTIMATE GREASE BOMB (cept for the tau huey) but soooo gooooood.

and then I had a hearty, hearty dinner. My ah pa whipped up some stir-fried udon with shitake mushrooms, ginger and garlic. FRIGGING HELL JUST MUSHROOMS GINGER AND GARLIC AND IT MADE ME GO CRRRAAAAZEEHH like a wild child. His current obsession is now udon, after eating some really goood udon last week from some japanese restaurant. that's how good my ah pa is.

and I am excited to eat at my grandma's tmr! I can't wait to seee what she's cooking. Her springrolls always spring me up, and the thought of sesame oil coated chicken slipping into my mouth is making me so hungry now. Oh shit. I realize I keep blogging about food and school. bear with me people!!!!

FYP

FYP PRESENTATION IS FINAAALLLYY OVERR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we went home late last night, cause we were the very last team to present! and elaine's the presenter before me, and she's damnn funnny she's forever making me laugh, and during her presentation I HAD TO REALLY SINK MY FINGER NAILS into my poor hands so that I could refrain from laughing cause I was the next presenter and I didnt want to screw our entire team up like how I screwed my presentation for EOF by laughing through 3/4 of my presentation... AND I DIDNT LAUGH!!!! I felt all clammy and cold just waiting for our turn to present and my mouth was stiffened to even break into a smile. and after everything, I thought all hopes were lost... and everyone was in a pretty sian mood cause we thought we didn't do very welll...

AND TODAY WHEN I CHECKED MY EMAILLLL, I REALIZED WE'RE ONE OF THE TOP 3 TEAMS TO PRESENT THE PITCH TO OUR CLIENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh. my. gosh. I feel like I could do anything right now. (Y) OUTREACH TEAM A!!!!

I misss flower, bitch and shia labeouf. But life goes on. : (

I haven't really been updating much, just bits and scraps on how I'm feeling. But lately I've been feeling crappish. Have been staying late in school every single day, lessons which end super early in the day were only there to mislead us. Early days which you though you could go shopping, watch a movie or just go home, are actually strategically arranged in a way that we could have the rest of the day doing... FYP (a.k.a final year project). But!!! I must say I am starting to know my group mates alot better (cause half of them are from different classes) and it's not awkward now, considering how much time.. we have spent in just two weeks.

then come home, eat, watch tv and then too tired to do anything so I sleep at 10. Sounds like what a primary school kid would do right? Ok maybe not. primary school kids nowadays very happening, got a lot of life. Morning classes are dreadful, I only like tuesdays.

and I really misssss hanging out with peopleeee i loooveee.

Fooood

I really havent been watching what I eat. I just ate pizza hut with my sister again!!!!! i binge eat sometimes, and I know it's bad but the feeling of stuffing down 6 slices of pizza feels... phenomenal and then after all that, I feel good. and then.. I start to feel horrible. like now. : (

Need. to. stay. positive.

Me and sak couldn't do filming for aaron : ( and FYP presentation tmr !!!!!!!!!

I feeeel.... crappy. Yeah, that's what.. I'm feeling now.

Sorry : (

I feel like I have been super mean lately. I don't really know why.. Like really really mean!!! oh welll.

But on the other hand, I like to send happy good morning messages to random people whom i care about during my 7.30am train ride to school, and receiving their replies. hahahah.

I'm going to miss both of you, more than you know it. : ( and both of you don't know the existance of my blog.. but oh well. I REALLY REALLY AM!!!!

MARK KOH YOUR EMAILS ARE SO @!#*)(@!*#). WHY YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME CRY : (

Today, I was too harsh on a friend I love alot. I'm sorry!!!!! :(

I just mopped the floor. I hate doing house chores. I feel like cinderella, without the glass slippers, prince charming and fairy god mother.

Yesterday

So I have been feeling crappy for almost every day in the entire week but yesterday.. was SUPER EPIC FUUN!!!!!!! cause i went to weiwen's house last night! cause he's gonna enlist next monday and we wanted to meet up for the last time before he goes in soo.. yeah.

His family cheered me up into bitssss, I love everyone in there. Felt like all my troubles melted away and I didn't need to care about them then. 3/4 of the time that I was there, I spent it on my laughing my heart out cause everyone so cute there!!! watched HBO with his entire family on the couch, ate cheeesecake that he made for me, having a heart to heart talk with his mother and his younger brothers were showing me around, and looking at random old childhood things and old photo albums, with his mother snapping alot of pictures of me and I don't know why and blasting music at 11pm int he night and singing taylor swift songs.. Omg.

I'm so gonna miss you bitch, pls take care!!!

: )

Talking to my sister over dinner was the best part of the weeeeeek. I've been so preoccupied with my own thoughts, I totally forgot to share them with her. and she bought me a blueberry tart!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) and it feels good to be happy tonight.

Another Sundayyy..

So went to town yesterday to seeee sak perm her hairr and bei bao to trim his browsss!!!! sak looks super high fashion now, seriously SERIOUSLY!!!!!! it's so vintage high fashion. i screamed when i saw her, HAHAHAHH!!!!

so it's a sunday again!!! My family members have different obsessions. my dad has this obsession of cooking chicken curry on weekends, and he cooked it again this sunday, I don't know why but he thinks it isn't perfect but I think it's super super perfect already!!!! and now my mom and sis switched to watching korean dramas, instead of hong kong dramas, they really super hardcore drama fanatics. and my obsession? I don't really have one now, hahha.


sis: HAN!! QUICK, I SHOW YOU SOMETHING!!!

me: huh what??!

sis: I BOUGHT NEW SHOES!!!!!

me: WHAT NOOO YOU SO DID NOT

sis: I SO DID!!! I quickly rushed and hid it in the storeroom at a nice safe spot : )


my sister and her obsession with shoes. SHE REALLY HAS ALOT ALOT SHOES

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY : (

my pretty momma


my handsome ah pa
























my sister and I've constipated smiles

Yesterday, went karaoke with my primary schoool kiddozz!!!!! I HAD SO SOO SOOO MUCH FUUNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's so strange how close we're getting, though it's our 2nd meet up, i felt like I know them for yearrrssss. More outings to come :)

Today, went for ice cream therapy with an old friend. : )

and then, went for one of my dear friend's father's wake. : ( I felt really really sad, even though I don't even know her father personally.. but just seeing her so tired and sad made me cry and made me hug her so tightly I didn't want to let go. and I saw kent!!!! it's been sooo long, i misssed him and he cheered me up. Pls take care li ling!!!!! i love you so much, <3

Ugh stupid weather

Today's event was really damn fun, even though it's really screwed. I don't know how to say this.. but yeah, that's how it was. We were told to be there at 7, and we did absolutely nothing until like 8.15 all the lecturers and people in charge started finding us to tell us the super last min. changes when the event was going to start in half an hour's time and we didnt have any rehearsals before that and we were so afraid to screw up in front of so many people, but... We didn't!!! Ok we did, a little.. but everyone laughed at our mistakes, and it was all in the name of FUN. i had fun.

Came back home and swam, the weather's so crazy that the pool's water was actually LUKE WARM!!!!!! Omggg, just the way I like my soya milk to be. So I was imagining swimming in a biiiigggggg cup of lukewarm soya milk and I felt disgusted. BUT YAYY!!! I FINALLY EXERCISED!!! All the crap food I have been discreetly eating and throwing away the evidence so my mother doesn't find out. Hehehe : D

And my dear sister bought like 300g of famous amous cookies and I WONDER HOW SHE ACTUALLY FINISHED EVERYTHING until left 5 nia, in frigging 3 days?!?!??! I know that's possible, but I don't really eat.. cookies the hardcore way.

It's raining heavily now and I suddenly thought of flower. Thoughts of tidal waves crashing on his ship and everything scare me. Please be okay, flower!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. 7AM IN SCHOOL TMR. FRIIGGGING 7AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??!??????????????????????????/////////

Plans cancelled and postponed todayy cause birthday girl couldnt make it : ( But it's ok!!! I needed a good rest today anyway. I really had a good rest!!!! Had time to make a birthday card and did up cue cards for tmr's event. It's been a long time since I last hosted an event.. and I'm doing it with my favourite boy. : )

I was bored so I went to look through old photo albums and I found this one with all my mom's old photos when she was a teenager. Wah, she really damn hot. and my dad was hot too. Hahahaha now also hot la. hahahahah. I like looking through my childhood photos, cause I never want to forget it. Everytime I ask my mom about her childhood, she forgot alot of things. But I want to remember mine regardless of my age, even when I am in my 40s, 50s, 60s and so on.

Another Sunday

My mom and sis are watching hong kong drama on their computers and it's damn annooyyinggg, I'm reeally starting to get annoyed by the same old actors with bad make up and canto accent, damnnn annooyyyinnngggggg@!&#(*@&!#*(&9

and my mom has been coughing damn badly, and so the house is abit sick-ish, filled with sick air. Sometimes i feel sick when I am at home. I hope everyone will become welll and energetic againn.

weather damnn humid lately, super hottttttt. And we can't really switch on the aircon cause of the sick air. So can you imagine the sick air in my house COMBO together with the bloody weather?!?!??! It's deadly.

K then, in a few mins. , bei bao is coming over my house to do script together for our tuesday event. MOMMY PLS STOP WATCHING THE HONG KONG DRAMAAA, IT'S KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. : (

I felt like a really good friend yesterday. But today, I felt like a really bad daughter. I just left my mom to do grocery shopping alone, ALONE!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. : (

Goodbye, goodbye, good friend, goodbye

I can't believe I actually teared while reading mark's email to me. I REALLY AM GONNA MISS YOU FLOWER!!!!! it's so strange how we actually met and became friends, what a fascinating random phenomenon. and I actually woke up at 4 today just to send him offf with tams and we took the good ol' train. he's gonna be gone for 6 months, so yeah, I hope he will be fine. : )

so yesterday, we hung out at tam's before mark's farewell!!!!!!! wah seriously tams, your oreo cheeesecake is da bombbb I LOVE IT!!!!! we played wii and just lazed around when it was raining heavily outisde, it was really nice and warm. and mark fetched me and zach, i really have phobia taking his car. And the phobia grew even more when he fetched me home last night. WE TOOK ONE HOUR AND TEN MINS TO REACH MY HOUSE!!!!! to figure our way out from bukit batok to choa chu kang, when the train only takes like 2 stops?!?!?!??!?!? I really got damn scared, i mean both of us. HAHAHHAHAHHA BUT it was damn funny to get lost, damn funny. I am gonna miss it.

so i rushed from changi airport to schoool for SB FOP rehearsal, the people there are nice people!!! and went back home and crashed ont he bed for 3 hours and here I am. and I have to go back to school again at 7. T______T today was a long, draining, and sad day.

Met up with my primary school friends after 7 years!!! AND THE STRANGEST THING EVER was that, we weren't even awwkward with each other!!!! and all of our characters are stilll the same as we were 7 year back ago though our looks changed quite a bit! we had like endlesss things to talk, and we're even going out again next week!!!! is this like so cooool or what?!?!? and most of us have friends who are like each other's friends now, it's a really really small world. But what can I say, singapore is small!

then WHIP IT IS A GREAT MOVIE! watched it with saks today!!! WAH WE COUPLE SEATS!!! SO ROMANTIC!!!! we really thought we were going to be the only ones in the theatre, but no :/ but still very little people and i think we made the most noise anyway, hahaha. damn fuuunnn <3

Sunday

So everything ends on a Sunday, whether the week was good or not, depends on how you feel on Sunday. I don't really know what to do on Sundays and I never wanted to do anything on that day anyway. But yeah, most of the time, I feel good. Feels very serene today, the chilly weather and wrapping myself in my fav. snuggly yellow blanket.

Last week, I really had a crappy Sunday cause I had crap thoughts flooding my mind. But this week's good, though the day hasn't ended. There're somethings we've to learn to let them roll when you know nothing good is going to come out of them. No matter how much you like them or desire to have them, wellll... some things are meant to be yours and some things will never be.

friend says:
EAT THIS BITCH _|_
send this
works aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll the time
99% of the people don't reply anymore
1% of them, truly deserves to eat it

Broke because I had kuishinbo for lunch this weeek, $32
Broke because I bought this reeeaaally nice highwaisted pants, $45.90
Broke because I had 2 cups of milk tea this week, $3.80
Broke because I upsized my pon tian nooodles, $4.50
Broke because I had Mcspicy extra value meal for dinner today, $6.75
Broke because I bought identical shirts with IBS2 (it was on sale!!!!), $29.90


OMG i SPENT $122.85 THIS WEEEK. Sian.

Kkkkkk great i am broke. but I had a really good week. : )

Bliss

HAHHA I FOUND THIS AT SAK'S BLOG. Well, happiness is slowly trickling back again! THANK YOU MY LOVELY FRIENDS AND FAMILLYYY, EACH EVERY ONE OF YOUUuu who would always be there for me no matter what.

Ok, so like 3 more weeks of holidays left! and I'll be embarking on my fiinalll yearr, which sounds scary, unpredictable and saddening. It's sad because I would be leaving SP and SP is like family to me, one of the places where I met all the greatest people I would ever meet in my entire life, place with goooooood food that reminds me of home sometimes, and the greatest and coolest lecturers whom we can just talk to like friends, no stress talking to them and popping by their rooms to just chit chat and steal foood, sooo many things I've learnt and grown from them and there was never once where I felt alone or lonely in school because I've the greatest friends around me all the time. <3

And it's also sad that old lecturers are leaving and the new ones are coming, and I don't really like the idea of that, but what to do? :( The only modules I'm looking forward to next sem would be broadcast journalism and radio production, the two elective modules I'm soo blooody lucky to get into and in the same classs as IBS2 as well!!!!! damn happy. and of course, LUNCH TIMEEEEE, I LOVE LUNCH TIME and spending time during lectures thinking of what to eat every time.

K BYE : )

Went out with mark and tammy yesterday and it was pretty funnn AND SHIOOKKK. and then mark insisted to drive us back home when alll i REALLY WANNTED was to take the darn MRT homeeeeee. And we had to make rounds and rounds just because he's not very good with directions and neither were me and tammy. HAHAHHAaa it was crazy, first time sitting in a friend's car with my friend driving.

I FEEEEL GOOOOOOOODDDD ALREADAY!!!!!

It's good to let go off things sometimes. And I went shopping with old friend, szehui!!!! Omg, I misss her tooo muchhhh, had too many things to say to each other!!!! <3

I don't know why but I'm still mad angry inside, scolding all sorts of bad names I can think of describing the worst of you in my brain. And then I realized, it's not gonna help the situation at all.

Awww, thanks guys.


: )

Round round round

I'm missing all the takoyaki I ate today. Oh those crunchy round balls of happiness. I had 10!!!

Don't care already, today happy day!!! And drank our milk tea as usual. The world seemed alot brighter today, cause the happy three friends went out. and finally met MY BABY TAMMMYYYY HAHAHAHHA. I think she'll annoyed when she sees this.

It has been raining for daysssss and dayss!!!!! I don't why but I havent been in the best of moods, issit a sign that my bloody sloppish meatball companion is coming?

Yesterday I didn't go to my grandma's house cause I was sleeping all the sleep that I havent slept for the past night. But my mom packed foood fromthere!!! Like alot of foood!!! And although it wasn't hot anymore, I felt warm instantly. : )

I don't want to socialize so much anymore. I don't really want to be bubbly. I don't really want to talk to some people. I am rude sometimes. I don't really know what's with me now, but I hope this feeeling is temporary!

Boo, you whore.

I'm back from camp with a scratched throat and aching joints. Whispering talks, blankie talks and taboo had been fun. Jit tells super scary ghost stories, kns. :(

I had another great day today : )

so I was brushing my teeth just now and I took a peeep in my parent's roooom and my rooom where my sister was sleeping, they were sleeping so soundly and I realize how much I love them. :')

DOo dooo dooooo

Today was one of the best days of holidaysss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111 havent had sooooo much funnnnnnnnnnnnn for a really long time.

and I just ate dinner, and the uncle cheated me of one fishball!!! ONE FISHBALLLL!!!!! I was suppose to have 4 but noooooooooo. But whatever. Today = HAPPPPPPPPYYYYYY <3

Ugh

I feel that my morning/afternoon is screwed. I don't like reporting my every single move to show that I'm such a happening person, because well, I'm not. Ugh, stupid PRICKKK. i finally found something suitable to use that word. Sometimes people really annoy the shit out of me.

Breakfast

So while we were having our prata breakfast this morning,


pa: I'M THE PRATA OF THE KING!



hahahahhahaha

Spring Clean!

Ok, I decided to clear my cabinet fullll of rubbish. ok, not rubbish. Ughhh, I hate being so sentimental cause I KEPT ALL THAT STUFFF SINCE LIKE PRI 3!!!! Do you guys do that??? I really have super ancient things.

Like the primary 2 disgusting piggybank I didn't want to throw away and ended up throwing away. and the wrapping paper of my first ever valentine's day chocolate from a boy who liked me, omg I don't even rmb keeeping that. and my autograph books I've kept.. and all the comics I drew when I was primary 5. I have plenty of series where I photocopied and sold them to my classmates for a dollar. And out of all the stufff, I ended up throwing away 1/8 of the stuff away. hahahha so much for wanting to spring clean.

I find it weird when people tell me that they're hungry. Uhm, then go get some food to eat?

: )

I am getting really uncreative with my titles. Went to pris house to play with her dog, chocolate! I just sat there stroking him for 2 long hours till he fell asleep while pris and I talked. and then went to meet aaron yesterday, I haven't seen him in the longest time!! and then went to meet ww to talk again. I have been meeting people to just... talk. But talking is nice, I like talking.

Talking to some idiot right now who's driiiving meee nutssssss but having so much fun at the same time. hahahahaha. Oh shit. 1.18 am.

Just now on the train there was this shabby looking guy with crummy dirty fingernails who smelt like a pile of soaking wet rags, sat next to me, listening to some really loud TECHNO MUSIC. UGHHHHH#@!(*#*(!@& it was so annoying that I burst out laughing! and embarrassed myself, yet again.

I hate doing house chores. : ( and my mother very smart.


me: Ma, can give me 80 dollars for the dental thing

mom: That time in DECEMBER papa gave you $800 for the wisdom tooth surgery right? then you used up only $700, so still got $100.

me: ..... *SIAN*

Tuesdays with Yanhan

Today was yet another rot-at-home day. Was supppose to go happy with cheena gang to go sing cheena songs at cheena kbox but in the end I had dental!!! Now, I'm waiting for 3.40 to come so I can go for my teeeth cleaaanning session and then jelle belle's yami yoghurt time after dinner!

What I'm doing now is watching my giant vitamin C pill fizzle in a glass of water. today's weather super hot !!!! buay ta han.

:' )

Hugh Dancy made me cry today in Adam.

I read random dusty old books I found at the back of my shelf today and great, I developed a sore eye but it'z okay now!!!

Now that's how I like to spend my first few days of holidays. Alone.

I don't really want to talk to you anymore.

I don't really care.

I really, really don't care.

That's kinda sad. :/

Irving. says:
Haha, always be proud of your achievements =)

Thanks dooode, I will see you soon-ish!!!! : )

The Art of drinking

I have always thought that men should drink black coffee with no sugar, and tea is for girlies like me. I mean, in the movies you've heard people saying, "Have some tea, my lovely lady." People don't say that sentence for nothing.

But my dad's an exception. He can drink both coffee and tea. He always have his cup of coffee ready for the morning, and after he drinks it and says, "Ok, I'll go to work now." under his coffee breath, it's like whoaaaaaa, this man's gonna work soo haaard to feed his family of four, it's sooo unbelievably manly.

And he just had this hot green tea that I made for him awhile ago and under his green tea breath he said, "Ok, I shall go iron some clothes now." and i was like whoaaaaaa. It felt like a samurai ready to embark on his next dangerous mission. It's just different.

I rmb I heard from somewhere that you would end up falling in love with a guy like your father. I think it's unbelievably true. I want a guy who can drink both coffee and tea and makes you feeel like, WOW. He's a real man.

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So my friends have gotten back their A level results and most of them did soup-er good. I'm really happy for them! Somehow, I can't stop thinking what it would have been like if I were to take their route and sit for the A levels. Would I get trashy grades? Yeah. Probably.

I rmb vividly an ex goodfriend of mine gave me perfectly sound advice that she would go find the tallest building in Singapore and jump and end her life if she had gotten my grades for O levels. But yeah, we havent been friends for the longest time since... and the more I think of it, the more motivated I get to study!!!! YEAH thank you ex friend for your super words of wisdom, which have brought me through my exams for these 2 years. I'm done with exams!!!!! For now. Cause there wouldn't be exams for my year 3, and I am not at all psyched about my final year project. i really dont like the sound of the word "green" or the colour green anymore, I'm sorry zhengyan if you see this. :(

Ohh. Crap. I dont know why I'm feeling this way. I dont knowwwwwwwwwwww

: ))

I LOVE YOU TAMMYY!!!

I really do, please good care in Cambodia you lovely kind-hearted Samaritan <3

:D :D :D

I AM OVER THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAKO-YAKI @ ION, REDEEMED OUR 10 PIECE TAKO YAKIIIIIIII CAUSE MY CARD FULL OF CHOPS, WAH WE LOYAL FANS SIA, I HAD 9 CAUSE TAMMY GAVE ME ONE, XIE XIE TAMMY JIE. TAKO YAKI FOREVAAAAAAA. PLUS EACH-A-CUP MILK TEA. TODAY IS BLISS. <3

and shopping!!!!!!! wah funnnnn, cause jit paid me $1 to try 3 sets of clothes at river island. $1 so easy to earn can?!?!?!??!?! ok not very, cause the clothes he picked were HIDEOUS. SO HIDEOUS, they should be burned.

I had so much fun it's starting to hurt in my head. crap, that always happens when I am overly happy.

: (

I was relieved cause another paper is down!!!! and went for a good lunch with tams and we sure ate alottttttt.

But once I came home, I plunged into this deeeep black misery. It's like drinking coffee without sugar - so dark and miserable. Dark and miserable. I havent smiled since. I sure got a trash load of law to study for. GO GO GOOOOOO CLASSSMATESSSS!!! WE CAN DO THIS!!!

: )

My dad's back!!!! Somehow,everything seems to fall back into place again. : )

: (

I always get partially depressed whenever my dad goes overseas, and he hasn't texted mom the whole day and he usually would. I know it can't be helped but ugh, screw this feeeeeliiinnngggg. Today's just not a very happy day.

Hot.

At times like these, I feel like transforming into a big slab of salmon and resting peacefully in the fridge till the day someone takes me out and bakes me in good ol' black pepper sauce.

Ketchup

Ooh k, so I met up with my neighbour-who's-my-exclassmate, weiwen last night. It was suuuperr coool to seee him again, cause like I havent met him like in forever although we live like super near each other. And the main reason why we havent met was because of this asshole who created this email about me and ex bf and sent it to like a gazillion people. A GAZILLION PEOPLE!!! WHO WOULDN'T BE ANGRY YOU TELLL ME?!?!?!?!??!? so I was telling him what an asshole he was, and he was telling me what a mean bitch I was to delete and block him on MSN and cancel him offff from my friend's list.

But yeah. That was like 2 years ago, and we just laughed over it. Those stupid childish moments we all once had. and I added him back on MSN again and.......... we're good again I guess! cause somehow, although we havent talked for like 2 years, I would never imagine myself sitting beside him and just talking trash like how we used to do it in sec 3 and 4.

We were table mates and I liked him being my table mate and he liked me being his table mate, and we made really good table mates since we both looove spazzing over spongebob and patrick and we live just blocks away from each other. I don't really get why he liked to call me a slut and I would call him a bastard, not because I was crude but I used it as a defence. But he was crude, and still is crude. and I would take homework for him when he's sick and he would take homework for me when I was sick, and we would meet up to pass each other homework and sometimes buy fisherman's friends because it's good for the throat. I went up to his house once cause I was curious to seeee how his house looks like, and his mother loved me and both of us talked like we knew each other for a really long and his house was sooo noisy because he has 3 younger brothers and they are super cute. When we were bored, we would go each other's house downstairs and just talk about any thing under the mooon, and it was like how it was, last night.

So yeahhhh. It was... nice. but no, we don't like each other in that.. way because, that would be gross. Wei wen, you will never ever seee this post, but yeah, this post is for you. : )

and that reminds me, I HAVE TO START MEEETING OOLLLDD PEOPLEEEEE, at least last night was a start.

: /

I wonder how chongsy (my law tutor) became a lawyer, LAWW IS TOUGHHH SHIT MANNNNNN T_T

:o)

Ahhh, yesterday's short-lived happiness was greaaaat, I enjoyed it to the fullest. It felt perfect for some reasons. Finished advertsiing management exam, ate burger king for lunch, had random loonnng talk with sak and lazing around, coming back home to go for a loonnng swiiim, checking for our free elective results, watching i love beth cooper (it's a really stupid show) with my sister online, reading some random Harry Potter book and sleeping at 10!!!

I realize it's not goood to sleeep at 10, cause I would end up waking at 3am in the morning and trying my hardest to fall back into sleeep. and I woke up with aches in my calves and my armsss, I think I havent swam for a really long time and my body's really rusty and cramping up. -.-

Yesterday was a gooood dayyy. And now, it's back to the nauseating rollercoaster ride of studying. BUT HELL YEAHHH media law ethics and public relations papperrrrr!!!!!!!!! GO GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!

#@!&#!@(&$)(@!*!@#

OH. MY. GOSH

I GOT INTO RADIO PRODUCTION AND BROADCAST JOURNALISM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWESOME SHIT AWESOME SHIT AWESOME SHIT OESOPHAGUSSSSSS

It feeels like a dream!!!! BUT IT'S NOT!!! It's a beautiful reality ~ HAHAHHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAFAUSIOFEwNFOIWENIDNWE

Tired.

"Tired" is such a stupid word. IT REALLY MAKES me feel tired immediately whenever I see the word or someone says to me, or I say it myself, it's a negative word. I don't like it. I hate using it, but I use it alot of it myself, while complaining to myself mentally.

Alot of people are tired, and they keep telling me that they are tired. And I'm always trying to make them feeeel more positive, but it never works, cause they tell me they are tired again, and it's like a circle, everything goes back to square one. and I get tired of listening to people say they are tired.

I wish someone would come up randomly to tell me, "HEY! Let's go be happy together! Wanna be happy with me?" and I would reply, "OK! LET'S GO BE HAPPY TOGETHER!. ^_____^"

My sister

My sister turns 21 today!!! : )Celebrated it with her for the past two days, it was really warm and fuzzzyyy. She finds it weird if I draw her cards, cause we seee each other every day and we talk to each other every day, and there's nothing we couldn't tell each other about. So i drew her a little cute note and pasted it on the toilet mirror before I went to sleeep last night, so she would wake up and brush her teeth to it.

Had ultimate kick asssss comfort foood for the past two days, and I'm feeeeling gooood just thinking about it! : ) and impromptu short meet up with ally bells yesterday cheered me up too, thanks for the yami yoghurt treat babeeeeee. You're really one of the few friends who live around me and I always feel super uber comfortable when I'm with cha. : )

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I've been feeeling super average lately. I haven't been talking to alot of people or socializing or just talking, just keeeeping alot of secret thoughts to myself. I don't know whyyy I always feeel like super duper crappy when it's exam period, or is eeveryone like me?!?!?!? The last time I felt excited was when I was dancing to random chinese new year song with my dad in a supermarket yesterday.

I feel like a rock.

Hello.

Today was the dreaded finance test. It was a chaotic 1 hour, and getting shocked at unfamiliar questions and stuffffff and trick questions and oh my gosh swirly wirly aches spinning in my head like blending tomato juice and cucumber slices and people flipping pages so quickly oh no why are they writing so fasssst how come i don't know this question and more flipping of pages sound how the helll did you finish that page so quickly and an annoying person tapping feet and people cheering next door oh shut up and 10 more minutes left oh my gosh 9 more minutes yet i havent done my calculations yet pls time pls time tick slower oh my gosh how to do thisssss and people leaving the rooom what the hellllllllllll why are you leavingggggg dont leaaaavveee the room is getting empty pens down. My heart stopped.

I wish people have the habit of adding smileys in their messages, it makes people like me smile. oh!!!! and me and tam bought sisterhood handphone stickers, it's damn kewt (cute). I realize I have been missing out alot, I really wish I could catch up with more people. I really doooo, don't forget me. : (

Eaaaat

I feel horrible today. I don't know whyyyyy. and when I feel horrible, I start to eat. I will reallllyyyyy stufff myself silly with all the wrong foooood, I ate 5 slices of bah kwa, 4 pineapple tarts, 4 slices of kueh lapis for lunch today. LUNCH!!!!!!!!!! But I made myself feeel even more horrrible.

No visiting today, cause of some reasons.. but going back to grandma's house in the night did make me feeeeel better! And I ate more,but it was like the gooood comfort food. Not like trash eating session. Oh my gosh, I really am one grouchy person today.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Sooo, I stayed over at my grandma's with my family, it was really nice, I would do it every year if I could, and I think I would, just to accompany her through out the new year's eve night! So my grandma, me and sis shared two mattresses on the ground, it was soooo nolstalgic. Cause I rmb when we had sleepovers in our younger days, we would sleep on the exact same mattress, with the green cover and dove printings on it. I slept very well. : ) and I really treasure grandma alot, cause she's my only only grandparent left and I love her alot.

Well, I didn't do much visiting this year. Actually, we haven't been doing so ever since my grandpa and my other grandmother left us. We would just go to a few relatives house and talkk and play boggle and cards and taboo sometimes and watch tv, most of the time at my grandma's house. and I donno, I wasn't very psyched about it also cause I have a test to study for : ( and some of my cousins and I studied in a room just now, while the rest played cards and watched tv. yeah, that's how I spent my new year!!!! oh and steamboat!!!! It was really nice tooo, ever since I've a new aunt last year, we had to allll squeeeze in this tiny round table, but it was still lovely. I felt sick after that, cause I think I ate too much fishballs.

Every time during Chinese New year, my aunt would bring us to the rooom with my grandpa's framed black and white picture and kinda like say quiet prayers to him. It has been.... 9 years!!!!! Oh dear, I really miss him. EVERY TIME I SEEEE his photo, I would always cry. I am an emotional sponge. : (

my grandma's house holds so many memories close to my hearrrtttttt <3 oh and I haven't opened up my ang paos yet!!!!!!!

Ok

Sometimes I don't get why people are so immature. Talk so much.

T___T

Just when I thought it's alll over, IT'S NOTTTT. Frigging finance test on THURSDAY, PLEASE. SAVE. MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

UCCD test sucks like crap cakes. But on a lighter note, I had a deeeelicious bowl of noodles for dinner, with lots of fishcake and char shao, sliced with love by Daddy. I can't wait to eat steamboat tmr, cause I will be hardcore attacking the fishballs, FISHBALLLS!!!!! <3 and staying over with my grandma, so I won't be using the internet, but it's ok, it gives me more motivation to start studying finance.

And I got my first choice elective, Broadcast Journalism through balloting today. Balloting is scary unfair shit. There were 10 people but only 9 spaces left, cause people who took up radio and tv production concentration got more advantage and they already got the spaces. I didn't want to be that unlucky person, nobody wanted to. and I saw farhannah cry because she didn't get it. It hurts me although I don't really know her very well. But at the same time, I didn't want to be the person crying. : ( This sucks, it sucks to be selfishhh. But yeahhh. Oh welll.

Oh well.

My parents LOOVVEEE to remind us about lots of stuffff. Especially when it comes to eating fruits. I was sleeeeeping on the couch just now, LIKE ALMOST GOING TO SLEEEP YOU KNOW, but then my ah pa hor, HAD TO LIKE SHOUT, "HAN PAPAYA IN KITCHEN GO EAT, NOW" and then there was once where he was reminding me to eat banana like 5 times, every 2 min interval. Ok yeah, I know this is random but yeah, random.

: )

Today was another laughing day! Oh my gosh, I realize I laugh alot. LIKE ALOOOTTTT, it's like buckets and buckets fulll of laughter every day. and then I come back home and laugh again. Wah today awesome sia, cause me and tam got free ice cream! :D

C'MONNNNNnnnnn ONE MORE DAYYYY AND HOLIDAYS!!!! Ok not holidays, I mean, study weeek. NOoooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooo

I. need. to. eat

I think, I am screwed for finance presentation. I CANT BELIEVE I LAUGHED OVER NOTHINGGGG DURING MY ENTIRE PRESENTATION TODAY. I REALLY LAUGHED LIKE HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHA, like ON AN ON LAUGHING!!!! I am screwed. The thought of studying finance during chinese new year really irks me. BUT I DONT WANNNA RETAKE FINANCE NEXT SEMMM, so I jolly welll study hard for this one.

Somehow, I became sad jsut now for a moment, but then !! Talking to people on MSN cheered me up. : )

HELP4HAITI

I did something meaningful today. Helped out for tammy's HELP4HAITI, and we raised $900+ for the first day! We have two more days to go, and it's A REALLY REALLY good start, everyone's really nice and generous! Efong and gang super funny and damn ON, they're the greatest bunch of guys.

School's still as busy as ever. And I just want to ignore certain things for now cause it's not doing my brain goooood. One big hurdle is down, now we have UCCD test on friday and finance presentation on wednesday, which we havent even STARTED. ok. I wonder what we're gonna do. This is getting harder than I thought, but schoool life has always beeen this hectic. MUST. PERSERVERE.

It's finally over.

Yep, event management is finalllyyyy OVERRRRR! I know I'm being selfish by saying this, BUT I THINK OUR EVENT WAS LIKE THE BEST AMONG THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and I ate fastfoood 4 times this week, FOUR TIMES!!!!!! But it's ok, I kinda worked it off from walking up and down to miss lum's rooom and adrian's room to carry heavy stuff. My arms don't seeem so flabby, OR SO I THINK. But UGH, I JUST ATE BAH KWA.

But yeah!!!! My minah gang girls came!!!!! <3 <3 and the whole bunch of syafiqah's friends!!!! <3<3 THEY WERE ALLL SO NICEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I really enjoyed talking to every single one of them during their lunch, it was really funn. I wish I could see them again. Our room really loooked like some hotel's ballrooom loh, NO KIDDINGZ. GOT RED CARPET AND LIGHTS AND STREAMERS. I felt kind of sad when we had to throw some of our decorations away, cause it felt like my one night stay in some luxurious hotel ended. And then, it was back to the empty disgustingly plain boring looking classroom.


I love The Glam Slam.

Clementi

C'monnNNN!!!! It's so near yet so far. We kinda finished some of our deco today, but not entirely... and like mopped around in biggg boook shop at clementi today and bought fabric again, our room is gonna be cloth-y cause it's gonna be BOOOOOM KABLOOOM WOW WOW WOW. But I'm kinda excited cause tammy's performing, and I like to watch her perform. HEHE :D

My heart is itching when I think of it, cause I don't really know what's gonna happen, cause sak had a nightmare about it.. and we've been garbage collectors collecting cardboards from drinkstall aunty and food court 5 where the smelly cheeese from pizza hut and oily KFC live. But I'm very determined not to have that little glimmer of flame diminish. Everyone's working really damn hard on this, and I am sure all of us will get good grades!!!!

Welll, event planning is suuuuper tedious. Yet so fulfilling when you've done something right, or think of really good ideas together.

OH WHAT JOY!!!

Wow, today was MIND BLOWING. like I could feel fireworks exploding my mind.

It didn't start off goood, but it ended off gooood!! I like impromptu classss thingys :D :D THANK YOU MISSS NGAAAAAA for dinner, it really made my day. Food really makes me happy. But I think I exceeded by fat intake for today, for having fast food for lunch and dinner.

BUT I AM SO HAPPY!!!! Cause we met this REALLY REALLY CUUUUUTEEE LITTLE TODDLER!!! We were alll so amused by him. He was like dancing to Super Junior's SORRY SORRY and imitating what we all did!!!! and eating ice cream angled 180 degree to his face, which caused a huge mess on his face. So cute that I wanted to rent him home for one day for 10 dollars to amuse myself and return it back the next day.

I need to stop being overly excited. NEED TO STOP BEING OVERLY EXCITED UNNECCESSARILY.

the Gift of life

Last week, I rmb touching my aunt's belly, and I felt mine together with it as well. The feeling's soo amazing!!!!!!!! It felt like touching some magical water, but it wasn't magical water. IT'S A BABY!!!! And she's a girl. : ) Or so what the ultrasound had said.

Today went to buy new year gooodies for my ah ma. It was quite fuuun!!! Ok, I am kinda looking forward to it now, a little, cause I will be staying over at her house on the eve to accompany her. My grandma's really quite cute. She's the only one who thinks I can sing, AWWWWWWW. : )

The skies are blue

I have been neglecting alot of people. I'm sorrryy, you guys know who you are, but yes, I still love you alll very much cause you'll all always be part of my life and I'll meeet up with all of you once holidays start!!!!! Promise. I'm gonna be a better friend! A better sister. A better daughter. and start eating oranges, to increase my vitamin C intake.

But on the other hand, I have been catching up with a few people, and that's really nice : ) I've been anti-social-ish lately but it's these people who are making me feeel better. You donno how much I yeaaarrrnnn to go back home right after school ends, cause home it's still the place to be in!!!!! and I've to stop overeating, ugh, it's all ah pa's fault. I've been eating healthily in schoool and at home!!! I feeel sucky sometimes, cause I really really want an upsized mcspicy meal, with the upsized coke I can't finish and mayo and garlic chill and curry sauce.

MSN sucks. I wanna talk over ice-cream, starbucks. That reminds me, I havent had caffeine for a really long time, cause I don't want my teeeth to be stained. But I am okay without it, i think. 8am morningsss. :/ BUT OVERALLL!!! I'm gooood I'm gooooddd, just building sandcastles in the airrr occasionally.. Life's gooood, just.. neeeeddd to prioritize.

It's ok if you don't understand what I'm talking about. This entire post is randomly pieced.

GO GO GO POWER RANGERRSSSSSS!!!!!!!

I STILL CANT DO MY LAW, LAW LAWLAAW LAW LAW, SO DIFFICULT LOR

thaaat... was obviously not me. hehehehehee.

Bei bao #1

my bei bao is the best boy in the world he is very nice to me
my bei bao is forever mine and all you boys can't compare
silly boys


bei bao bei bao bei bao

hoihoihoihoi

i like seafood hor fun and ion takoyaki with bubble tea but sometimes the pearls all stick together yucks lor!!! like eating playdough so gross lor

my bei bao is magnificent

AWWW

today I am happyy!!! cause, yeah. AWWW : )

OKO I AM SO THANKFUL I HAVE MY LAAPPPY SNAPPY WITH MEEE here in this cold cold rooooom, cause christel, sean, bei ling and adeline skipped GEMs classs. and I am quite sad about that.

I can't wait for this weeek to be over. And I dont even want to think about next week. NEXT FRIGGING WEEEEEK. WHERE OUR EVENT HAS TO TAKE PLACE. Ahhh

chicken rice uncle: OI ZHAR BORRR, what you want?

me: :O ERRR shao ji fan (roast chicken rice)

chicken rice uncle: ZHAR BORRR, want to add anything anot?

Happy birthday Bei Bao!!!

Today's jit's birthday, that stupid old man! But yeah, I still love him to bits cause, he's like the only guyyy whom I can trust to be with me alone at my house, just the two of us at my house. HAHAHHA, cause I know he will never ever do anything to me. OR WILL YOU, JIT? HAHHHAA, OF COURSE YOU WONT!!!! HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

we've got so many things to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, at least AM presentation is over. But still have law report, Public relations report, event management planning..... ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz. I wish time would stop and I could savour every bittttttttttttttttttttttt of thingsssssssssss. ok, I donno what I saying.

Awkward

I just went to the most awkward gathering of my life, and I've never felt so awkward before!!!! It was quite exhilarating to experience such overwhelming awkwardnesss cause I HAVE NEVER felt so awkward before!!! It's been a looonnng time since I felt awkward around people. It's been a long time. and then I realized, I'm human afterall. It's ok to feel awkward. Ok, I used 6 awkward words. No, make it 7 now.

But still, I had fun at some points and I know there are still people who care, and I should only care about the people who care, because that all matters. Thanks for the text messages, they matter alot and I appreciate them. : ) I FEEEL SO PROUD OF MYSELF FOR GOING!!!! Cause i really do feel liberated, a little, and I was so gutsy. It felt good.

and then I had a super good sleeeeeep cause I didnt have anythign else to worry... UNTIL I DREAMT OF MY AM PRESENTATION WHICH IS GONNA TAKE PLACE TMR AND I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT!!!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT AND IT'S FRIGGING TMR OK OKOK!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS MUA MUA MUA

Saturday Morning

I dont get what's with my dad and curry chicken. He likes to coook it every weeekend morning with roti prata. But ok, I am not complaining, I like to eat it too.

Okok, public relations report now.

OK!! MY THIRD POST OF THE DAY : )

My sister bought two pizzas from pizza hut, and WE FINISHED THEM BOTH!!!!!! the two regular ones!!! ok, I ate like 6 and a half slices, and I am suuuperrr fulllllllll

and I want to puke all 6 and a half slices out too. Period.

AND Oh MY GOSH!!! Hahaha, I was like adding random application thing on facebook and alot of people have been saying that the application, "God wants You to know" very accurate one so I went to try, and I got this:

You've been worrying too much about the future lately. So tonight, go ahead, put your faith in God, and just have a peaceful evening and a restful sleep.


:O SO ACCURATE!!!! ok weird.