:X

I feeel horrible. I probably didnt even sleeep last night, kept waking up to eat lozenges then drink water than go toilet then go back to sleeep then cough then drink more water then sleeeep then go toilet ITS A CYCLE, i hate sleeeping with a bad throat cause i know i wont sleep.

and i have got sooo muchhh to dooooooooooooo wish me luck i shalll try doing something

I dont know why, but it just suddenly dawned upon me that, happinesss doesnt just fall from the sky, if you sit and wait stupidly for it to happen, you are never gonna be happy. You have to go..and..make it happen! like yeah!!!! k i know damn random

tonights gonna be awesome though i have a bad throat i dont care i am gonnna stufff myself sillly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday!

i am an evil sloth, I dont even know how to start this... CIBM project that costs 35% of the overalll grade and it's an individual project!!!! and i have to solely depend on myself and i feel lost, cause theres sooo much to do and i have no idea on how to do it. oh wellll.

but I had a really fun dayyy yesterday!!! going out and alllll, so much fun that i had a throbbing headache, you know the kind of headache i always get when i get too overly excited and i have too much fun. oh! and i bought a new camera!! used my birthday money to get it, i kinda named it and it's called toodle. i have been wanting to get that for a really long time and I DONT KNOWWW I think its really cooool. :) i feeeel like my life is complete right now, for awhile. i am realllyy looking forward to monday!!! hanging out with flower and alll, it's gonna be fun :)

OH WAIT!! I cant believe I forgot to blog that MY FINAL YEAR PROJECT IS OVER!!!!!!!!

for now... there's still a long report to write and post stupid stuff on the forum. I have been writing like a writing machine for this entire sem, writing writing writing and mooooreee writing! and then i realized i do like writing, but i dont think i can do it long term.. its really tiring and makes my brain feel empty.

and it's the final lap, FINAL LAP AFTER YOG BREAK!!! Gonna chiong like there's no tomorrow, and I am gonna be like, the number 1 tai ko student, and live up to my name of tai ko empress.

Home early

Yay! I am home early, again, I really really like days like these. It feels like a friday, but it isn't a friday. ITS A THURSDAY!

I dont know why but i am itching to get a fujifilm instax mini!!!!! but that would also mean... my savings for the past few months, HAHahha i am a bad saver i know. i mean it's sooo coooool, but my love for something like this can be short, i dont knowww and me and sak were thinking of splitting the cost and sharing the cammera hahahhahahaha, oh wellllll. and who knows I might actually really get it like tmr or sth?!!?!?!? omg the sudden feeling of wanting to buy something really badly, I havent got that for a really long time.

and I am gg shopping w my sister tmr!!! i havent really got the time to go out w her since she's such a busy busy teacher. i am missing alot of ppl right now, you guys are on my mind... <3

Today.... WE WENT TO SEE KATY PERRY!!!! at mediacorp, entertainment on 5! They showered soooo much love on her I swear, including this gigantic beautifuuuull cake someone made for her and she actually dunked the entire cake on some random boy in the audience lol. I feel sorry for that doode who spent hours and hours making it for her and in a split second, the cake was wasted and thrown on somerandom person.... BUT it was given to her and she could do anything to it I guessss!

we were given free gigantic pink sticky lollipops to wave in the air and some giant candy squishy wrapped in cellophine paper and pretty posters and we had to like wave them around like siao and screeeaaam!!!!! out of all the mediacorp visits i have been, this, is the besst BESTTT visit I ever had!!! she was such a cutie, very very cute!

then back to the boring stufff on FYP... oh welll.

Weird weather

Since I am home early on a friday, I shall blog. I was suppose to go town and watch inception thenn things went awry and plans got screwed up and then was still suppose to go town but THE WEATHER SO FREAKING NICE?!?!??! aiya, come home sleeeeep. AND I SLEPT FOR A GOOOD TWO HOURS!!!! under my blankie and it was the most awesomest sleep ever. but I am going later still!!! it was a good decision to go home.

The weather has been reeaaaally weird. YESTERDAY WAS SO HOT AND SUNNY and today it was raining like mad and it was sooo coooold. I dont know why but I like the rainy weather better! But yeah, this week hasnt really been a good week so I am kinda determined to end today with a good note. wah, I dont really know what to say.. BUT I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT MONNNDAYYY!!!

and yesterday's test was really messed up, I TOTALLY DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS WRITING!!! My mind was like... O__________O aiyah whatever.

You willl always be my lovely sistaaaaa babbyyyy and I WILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!! even if you leave the club cause you will be signing up for membership for the next club :)




Today initially started offf bad and shakey but I made it into a happier and sunnier day!!! :) 10 tako yaki and got double stamps, DOUBLE STAMPS ON THE CARD!! Yayyy I got so many stamps on the new card i feel like i can advance anytime. and we didn't use our old card to redeem the 10 piece CAUSE WE REMEMBER YOU BEI BAO!!! We'll never ever redeem the 10 piece without you, it iwll be against our morals if we ever did.

and then had FYP.. and then!! me and lainester went to hang outt at HV and had starbucks and they remade drinks for us even though we finished half cause it was tooo sweeet so we had like one and a half cup of drinks. awwwwwww, it was a nice day. :)

I SURVIVED ANOTHER WEEK

wah so strange why last week so chillll ~ then this week is like HIOONNNNGGG already. :S rushing radio and broadcast. HANDLING QUITE OK-ISH!!!! gonna film at10am in the morning tmr, :S OMg, my achy shoulders form all the laptop carrying this week. :S

This week had been a really happening week. Just today alone, got quite alot happened already. We seen the extreme ugliness of people, which came from a balding, oily haired, short, fat lecturer. YES I AM STILLL MADDDDD just thinking about it. ok chilllllllllll. and running up and down and collecting filming equipment... and saw another kind of ugliness, which came from YET ANOTHER balding person, who is our dearest e______d. Why are bald people so angsty anal?!?!? I;ve learnt that sometimes when you say stuff to stand up for yourself or for someone, it doesn't always work.

AND THERES A FLYING COCKROACH IN MY ROOM NOW OMG WHYYYY FLYCOCKROACH SEASONNNNNNNNNNNN :(:(

i hate it when my mom's friends come over, i just don't...like it. ><

saturday plans got cancelled.. and here I am stuck at home, which is not an entirely bad thing cause I realize i have got 2 assignments to complete by this week and we're gonnna film stufff this week.. :( I havent got anything done yet, as usual...

Yesterday was pretty awesome though! we went to watch the battle of the bands and Will Submit On Monday got third place!!!!!! then went to macs w tam and went home.

theres this radio show thing that I have to churn out by friday and ALL I COULD THINK OF was, the name of the show which would be called fruit shake and the DJs will be called lychee and atapchee, which most likely i woudnt be using it cause it sounds plain retarded, i wouldnt want to listen to such a show. is this the best you can think of yanhan?!?!?! from all the time you had today?!?!??! sigh.

HOLY CRAP ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Omggg I had the most awesome birthday everrr (i say that every year) BUT I only say that cause my birthday does get better each and every year!!!!! omg....

I am still int he midst of replying my facebook wall posts... SO TIRED NOW but i am super determined to thank every single one of them cause they were so sweet to even wish me in the first place!!!! < 3 Omg, hugs hugs hugs everyone!!!!!!!!!!!

ze clique, I cant express how much LOVE I have for you guys, i know eveyr single one of you was so tired from all the projects and alll, and yet you guys still thought so welll and planned everything so detailed!!!! ok i know my english not very goood but you all love me for that. THANK YOU THANK YOUUUU i had so much fun spending my special day w you, especially just playing monopoly and letting me win on purpose sak, awww!!!!!! the card, the pretty skirt and the VIRGIN EYE BROW THREADING appointment at browhaus... I DONNO WHAT TO SAAY BUT I LOVE Y'ALLL, so much love it's OVERFLOWING!!!!!!!!!

and meeting pris the bestfriend!!!! Omggg I haddd sooo muchhhh fun just catching up w you and stufffff even though i was dead tired and you were tired from work toooo BUT I LOVE YOU I SEEE YOU AGAIN ON SAT w jus and dax. I love you guys very muchys tooooooo < 3

/EDIT EDIT!!! and I < 3 my family suuuperr uberrr muchys toooo, Omg the delicioussss secret recipe chocolate cake and AND AND!!!! chilli crab dinner!!! I LOVE YOUUuu

thank you everyone who made this silly willy girl so freaking happy today, I am overwhelmed. :)

Although we're not together w each other right now, but we're looking at the same skyyyy ~

HAHAHHAHAa just suddenly thought of something super cheeesy as I was sky watching. I hope you're doing gooood, lets talk again soon!!!

YAYY SUNDAYS!!! I have a love/hate r/s w sundays, cause on sundays I feel my bestest and then... i know on sundays when i sleep, i will wake to monday.

Today we didnt go to grandma's cause papa's not in the city, soooo... we decided to just stay at home. I didn't do much but laaze around.. I was suppose to do my CIBM project, but i kinda lost the brief... sooooo.... I HAVENT DONE MY PART!!!! which I am not even slightly bothered about it.

I watched despicable me w my sister already!!it was disappointing. :( I DONNOOO I DIDNT laugh much and its always soooo eeaaasy to make me laugh. maybe cause the trailer had all the funny parts in it and I watched the trailer and i laughed at it already. oh welll.

i am recently pretty hooked on this show called Jon and Kate plus 8!!!! i love watching little kiddies, k i just sounded like a PAEDO BUT WHATEVER!!! they just brighten up my day... with their silly laughters and smiles and stupid things that they say. and its really sad cause the parents are going through a divorce and these 8 kids are still so little!!!! its just heart breaking, i kept crying at some points. :( Yeah, thats about it, all that's on my mind right now!

Plans

I wish people would stop asking me about what I plan to do after poly, cause I really.. have no clue. Actually I do, I wannna follow the conventional route of going into a uni but somehow, the idea seems..bleeeeaak. I don't have a terrible GPA, but its not like I have a REALLLLY awesome GPA. Not a scholar, high flyer, president of a club... just an ordinary, ordinary, ORDINARY student.

Seems like I am left with these two semesters to pulll my socks up, but I am lacking motivation. Everyone around me is too, which..affects me even more. Schoool seems like a chore, my interest for something seems to come and go really quickly that..I stop liking something. The visit to Singapore Press Holdings yesterday made me feel like I have made the wrong decision again, the wrong decision of making my choice of internship too fast. I really would love to intern there, but now I am stuck with Moving Visuals. Butttt I never know, the thought of going into a really foreign place and not knowing anyone seems frightening, but exciting at the same time. I am ready to spreaaaaddd my super positive smiley happy vibes to new people and make new friends though!!! I'm looking forward to internship!!! Welll, ok, maybe it isnt so bad afteralll.

Then had a chit chat w my classmates on graduation holiday trips!!! I would loooove to go w them. I am gonna miss my class, we stuck w each other for 3 yearssss and I am reeeeeeeaaallly gonna miss every single one of them, I feel really blessed. Well, I LOVE EVERYONEEE from my cohort, they are like, the most awesome people I have met in my life so far. dead awesome.

Ppl who are still reading this blog, awwwww, I love you guys tooooooo. :)

MY ANTI SOCIAL DAYS SEEM TO BE DRIFTING AWAY!!!!! I feeel like meeting tons of people now, i misss hanging out w tons of people !!! k it's 5.13 and I am at home and not schoool, ther emust be something wrong. I LOVE DAYS LIKE THESEEEEE

A really nice thing.. to do

I went out w my pri school friends yesterday! IT WAS SUUUUUUUUUPER fun! we always have a lot of gooood laughing fun together. We had this crystal jade xiao long bao buffet and i ate 20 xiao long baos!?!?!?? and alot of other thingss... i don't know how i did that BUT I JUST DID IT. And I know I damn noob, but it was my first time eating at crystal jade!!! so embarrassing.. Hahaha. But I don't usually eat out cause i have an awesome father who cooks awesome foood, WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE, PA???? : )

and then they treated me and sheryle to haagen daaz ice cream. It was kinda my first time eating haagen daaz ice cream too. Gosh, I feel like a village girl, never eaten at crystal jade and haagen daaz, but I know I am a really lucky girl cause I still got to eat them! I was soo tired on wednesday already, but meeting up w them totally didn't make me even more tired, strangely. I looove these girrlliess.

and today.. I REALLLYYYyy didn't want to come to schoool T___T But I dragged my asss outta bed and offf I went to schoooool for koid's class. AND then Public relations writing, sian to the max. and it was raining sooo heavily!! it was a mistake to wear my flippies and shorts, never knew the skyy would turn his back against me and my toes were like frozen chicken sticks. but lunch w sak was suuupperr shioook! ate at her fav. place, and wah up till now, still cant believe she paid 4.90 for that bowl of YONG TAU FOOO O____O damn those money scammmmeeerrrrrssssss. and then took a warm shower and pooof! under my blankie, with the raindrops pelting against my glass windows, soooooo shiiiooooook

Believe it or not, I still feel pretty anti-social though I don't show it. I liiike to sit at home and rolll in bed and open the fridge door when there's not alot of food I can find in there and roll around in bed and switching ont he fan and sit in front of it for 10 whole minutes. I am probably a 70% introvert and 30% extrovert? I am a true blue homey girlie!!!

What. a. day.

TODAY'S MONDAY, meaning there's schoool today. SCHOOL STARTED ALREADY. : ( I realize I am becoming more vulgar lately, I do say out a few _____ sometimes, but I try to keep my mouth shut cause I don't want to make it a habit. And although my mouth is shut, my mind is like a running commentary of all the expletives I can think of in this world. This, is how ___ed up I am feeling about school. School's becoming a chore now, I can't... really describe the emotion I'm feeling right now it's like a mixture of ____ and ____. OMG SEE WHAT I MEAN

and this new teacher in charge of our Final Year Project is like?!?!?!??! _____ed up. wah once he starts talking hor... MAKES NO BLOODY SENSE AND UGHHhhhhH@!@!#!*(@#*(!@&*@!& waste our blooody time and so slow!!!!!! MAJOR. COMMUNICATION. BARRIERRRR. I'm sorry I know you're trying so hard but... it's not working. ITS NOT WORKING and I would never believe you worked in an advertising industry before?? are you seriously kidding me??? AND I AM GONNA SEEE HIS FACE AND ANOTHER SUBSTITUTE TEACHER'S FACE WHO REMINDS ME OF DIRTY SAND TOMORROW and who makes senselesss depthless remarks. _______. What a great epic project to end our last year in schoool.

BUTTT! I larve my friends. larve them to death. <3

teeheh

K soo, I went to my internship place! I guess everything went well!!! I got the papers signed and everything.. just that I waited for 1 hour and practically stared into space just waiting for the person to be done with her meeting. O____O

But, the people were really hospitable still!!!I kinda made friends w a few interns there, but I think they will be gone by the time I go in. And now, I am just hoping wei rong can get the same internship w me then we can intern together >___< the convo w sak last night, made me think wehteer it was worth going through all these trouble just looking for an internship place, cause.. the places the school chooses wouldn't be.. that bad either right? But I feel quite stupid cause everyone knows their direction on where they want to go to, and I don't... Yeah! Maybe like wht sak said, it's fate way of helping this fickle pickle choose. Just gotta stay.. positive and bright and sunny!

it makes me happy knowing that tmr's friday, I thought today was friday. so that means... I have one more day before schoool starts which, I'm pretty much dreading it. and all the CA datelines screaming in our faces, and all the worries on what to eat for lunch come back.

Marky

Today marky was back for awhile, so he toook tam tam and I in his car as usual and we went out!!!! to jurong point!!!! I think it's very fun to have a friend who drives, but at the same time, it's quite scary as welll cause somehow along the way, we'll always get lost... BUT WE DIDNT GET LOST TODAY!!! : )

and thanks marky for the treat and lift back home : ) It's been prolly 2+ months since we last met, and it still felt the same, like how it used to be 2+ months back. aand you haveta go abck again today!!! pls take care flower : )

Somehow, I feeel sleeepy today. I am gonna sleep early today.

Thoughts

It's Sunday! And on sundays, I usually don't do anything. Today's another familiar sunday, just sitting here, thinking about stuffff. I haven't written in my spongebob orgnizer for a damn long time. I NEED TO UPDATE IT!!! and Idon't really have a splendid memory, all those dates for project meetups and hang outs...

I was thinking........ I wannna like go...drink coffee w my friends in the middle of the night and get caffeine drunk.. I think.. that would be quite awesome. and then fall asleep on someone's lap while waiting for a cab or sth.

and then I have this secret, that I secretly want to go out with YOU!!!!! I wanna I wanna skip around and do random things and laugh with you. But I dont know, I'm not very good w this... I might freak out and faint on the spot and die from a heart attack, or I might be... awkwardly boring, but will you mind WILL YOU MIND???

Justin's

Omg, I forgot to blog about this!!! I met up w my sec sch friends on sunday, before I went for camp, to celebrate justin's birthday!!!! he had to do 19 stupid things before he could get his present. it was reaaalllyyyy fuuun!!! and pris kept treating me, i think she was in a good moood, paid for my gummy pigs and my happy lemon bubble tea!!!! thank youuu thank youuuu :)

Life after camp

I still feeel like I haven't got sufficient rest. The day after camp ended, it was family day!!! We went out to have carl's junior for lunch at vivo, then kuishinbo buffet at jurong point for dinner. IT WAS MADNESSSS!!! food + yanhan = insane yanhan. eating at kuishinbo made me miss marky, even more!!! I MISS YOU MARKY!!!

Then I came back home soooo tired and allll, and fell asleeep quickly cause the next day it was... PROJECT DAY :( then woke up at like 8.30am to get ready and stufff... did project... then headed down to cityhalll to meeet the rest to chill at starbucks. (oh!!! before that amira treated me and sak to fried mars bars! thank you amira darling <3 ) YAY 30% DISCOUNT OFF MY CAFFEINE FIX, thanks to charsy : ) Java chip makes me go crazy and headachey but I still love it I don't know why???

and we talked about stufff and stuffff and then we went to pick pretty flowers for rambutan's concert, and ally belly and I named both of them, one gillian, the other emi. Concert was awwwweesoooomme, then after concert, something struck me (i think it was the caffeine thnig) and I went crazy, then we had mcdonalds for dinner and i feel awful. Awfully unhealthy. and then ally belly and I met wei liang on the way back home and he performed magic tricks for us. He was gooooooood. After he left, we had kinda like a deeep talk on the train, she talked to me about her intuition. It was intriguing and complex BUT SO TRUE!!! And I slept at 2 last night. and I dreamt that my name was changed to Nutella. and I feel mooody now, but yet so sattisfied. Well, life's like this.

Camp

I'm back from camp! Yayyyy. Though I always feeel crapppy at the aftermath, it's kinda worth it. I was a camp group leader for the first time ever, and my assistant GL was wei yi!!!! He's a super nice guy, I never really got to know him until this time... though he always bullies me i still really like him and my group's pretty awesome!!! I love most of them... , if you know what i mean, but i really do! Very very sweet people.

and I love my bunk mateeessss!!! last night saw 2 girls, tammy and I going to bathe at 2.30am in the morning, in the freaking dark, cause tammy really really reallly really wanted to bathe and nobody else wanted to cause it was so late, but we were fearless (ok maybe not fearless), cause we were holding hands and singing songs super loudly in the toilet and on the way to the toilet. DAMN FARrrr and scary :( but what to do, I can't let my sister walk in the freaking dark and bathe alone right?!?!? I realize I like holding hands alot. I kept holding charsy's and tam's hands. and I hope char's leg is better!!!! I like the idea of washing hair in the sink.

Bunk mates like ramdan, wan ting, jia le ahhhh they're super niceee i swear. jia le is SUPER SUPER CUTE!!!! she's prolly the cutest girl i have ever seen in my life so far. and ramdan super sunshine boy, whenever i seee him, he's always smiling and making me laugh, he makes me smile. :) and other nice people who slogged through this camp altogether where everyone took care of each other. I finally got to talk to selene!!!!! i misss her so much from last camp.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTTT, everyone stayed back up late just for her and got her a cake, that lucky lucky girl. <3 I reallly like this girl too, one of the sweetest girls I know. :)

I got to lie on this giant slide and loookat the stars at 10pm, they were sooo niiice. though i am a GL, i didnt really get to know the juniors still. but hey it's alright, i still got to meet and know nice people alot better. sorry this post not according to specific order, but in really random bits, but you know what i mean!!! :)

I don't like it when people don't take me seriously. Especially when I do take them seriously, and respect them and try my hardest to be friendly and all.

My hair has never felt soo good before. I have been following my sister's hair regime. Apple cidar rinse once a week, and marshmallow shampoo bar! My hair smells like.. my blankie.

Wah, I really dont know what to blog. K so I secured my internship at my aunt's friend's production company, called Moving Visuals. But somehow, I feel like they're not taking me seriously, or maybe I am thinking too much? I tried calling them yesterday to ask for more information, but like the person in charge is forever busy and I called them 3 times and that person is always not freeee : ( But oh welll.

I feel that recently, I just don't have much thoughts in my mind. Like, it's really hollow and I don't feel smart.

Ok. so. it was a bad decision to stay at home today. BUT Ok, I had a choice. Go for a pointless lesson with some boring guest lecturer or stay at home. I rather stay at home. AND SOOO!!! I did. hahahha, and it was laaaame cause I went swimming and it was drizzling and it was rainy and colld... I know wth was i thinking?!?!?!?

but whatever la, I hope i became slightly fitter ?

Welll, I've always been secretly thinking. How do you keep that smile going when you know deep inside you, everything is crumbling down and there's no one left for you, except for yourself?

You know we're all watching you, fake that front, and we're on the other hand, faking a front in front of you.

How much longer can you go on? Somehow, no one really cares. They just want to watch you fall. We've never been close. This, is the most superficial and sad thing I have ever seen.

Even though we may not be very close now, but you know I still love you?

:(

I dreamt that my.. pa died last night. Omg, I cried so much so much in my dream, that when I woke up, my eyes hurt but there were no tears.

The minute I woke up, I quickly ran into my parents' room to see if he was there, only mommy was sleeping soundly, he wasn't there. Tears started REALLY brimming my eyes, and I started to panic. then I smelt coffee.

Slowly, I tip toed to the kitchen cause I didn't want him to see me and know that I am awake, he was there! Making breakfast for everyone, as usual, like any other day. Oh shit, as I am typing this, tears are streaming down my cheeks. It was a really really heartbreaking nightmare, I never ever want to lose my pa. Never ever. Really scared the shit out of me. :'(

Our secret plan

conversing w jit on microsoft word hhahah


We celebrating where?

I was thinking of in the train

Like a random RANDOM one

U cant light cake wawd

Uhm, maybe I leave first

Thenn

I take the train to clementi

Then wait for someone to cue me that the next train theya re in

Then I hop on to it

Then BY SURPRISE!! I will seee everyone

I will get everything done… by then

Maybe someone can go with me first

But then shd celebratw with the class 1st wad

Wei rong they all wanna come also

Like tag along

Had QUIZNOsss for lunch today. After eating that, I realize how much subway sucks. this is goooooooooooooooooooooooood. (Y) and I realize I am pretty goood with surprises today!!!! happee birthday my baby : )

Final year project is pretty screwed. Screwed project managed by stupid old saggy whiney demanding people, screwed project which our module coordinator just abandoned us today and left for her family problems instead (and I understand but still inevitably sad), screwed project which is making ALL OF US feel so unmotivated, and hopeless. I don't even feel a sense of optimism in this at all. : ( I really hope our batch of juniors don't have to go through this shit that all of us are going through now.

My father has something against those stupid old saggy whiney demanding lecturers and staff in my school. I have too. you guys suck. Nobody likes you alll. It's so terribly sad : (

Alot of stuff were running through my mind. And yeah, I think I miss hanging out with you (you read this space) too! If only everything was like last time.. :/ I realize I stopped making time for people, and start coming up with excuses not to meet people, and it's deadly. Somehow, I like to be alone now and I like to stay at home alot, like watching tv and staring into space or the sky. Somehow I feel like I have lost a part of me, but I'm still me. you know what i mean?!?? Hopefully it's gonna be a passing phase...

and I made oreo cheesecake w my sista last night! IT IS DELISH!!!!!!!!! and my sista is in this crazy korean moood. Omg, she has caught it. SHE HAS CAUGHT THE KOREAN BUG.

It was friday night and I went to ww's house cause he wanted to watch 500 days of summer. His youngest brother took a pillow and rested his head on my lap while I brushed his soft hair. It was a good, tiring friday night. Nice enough to end off the week. : )

SO muchhh things to doooo, and yet I am not doing them. The only days I look forward to are tuesdays and fridays cause there's only one class for those days. But I lovee friday the most, I love radio classes man!!!! seriously. hanging out int he studio and recording sounds and scripts and stufff, and I love the radio class people.

oh!! and I'm in campus radio now and the YOG volunteer thingy!! I am really really quite psyched. I am gonna make year 3 really really really really REALLY epic

I am super hungry now cause I didn't eat my dinner! and no I am no trying to lose weight, I was just fulllll from all the tako yaki and yaki soba... OMG I CANT GET ENOUGH OF JAPANESE FOOD AND JUST... FOOD, really. I am getting a headache from my hunger but I don't really want to eat stuff now cause yeah I just.. don't.

I was suppose to make cute oreo cheesecake cupcakes tonight BUT NOOO, didn't buy enough cream cheese. : ( DARNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!@#)(@*(!#*!@

School's beeen good and busy! I feel alot smarter these days. I don't really know why. I don't normally feel smart. I feel normal. BUT YA. feeling smart is good.

I saved a snail today, I think that's the most happening thing that happened to me today

it felt strange, cause I've been mad busy for the past few days/weeks and today, was like nothing at all cause radio class was cancelled. so I stayed at home and watched lots of things and then I felt like something was wrong. oh yeah. I still have assignments!!!! ahh they can wait.

A few days ago

It's raining heavily now and the weather is super humid and it's sooo daaarrnnn hotttttt.

on wednesday, went for comperes meeting with the new juniors! then went to udders with sak, jit and messiah cause messiah's friend works there and we got 20% discount!!!! it's been a long time since i last sat down for ice cream and just.. talking. It was nice. : )

there's nothing much to talk about other days except that it was alll about school work and stuff.

and I cut my hair! and fringe.

new hair ^ ^

I talked to flower today on the phone just now!

Pitch!!

Wow.. so the final pitch is finalllyyy over. Although we didn't win, I felt like alll of us were winners! We had two teams tied in for second, and we're one of them! and we got $300, haven't really thought of how we're going to spend it.

It's so so scary to be one of the 3 presenters of your team, cause it's the feeling of not wanting to screw up so badly and there're so many important people around watching us like some top industry players, lecturers, awesome school mates and your team mates, and the spot light hitting on you where you couldn't see anyone but you know all the attention is on you. BUT I AM SO GLAD IT'S OVER NOW!!!!!! and we got to talk to people frm the industry and stufff, it was a really, really, really good experience. I felt like I was 30 years old, I just felt old and matured and grown up. It's a really weird feeling. and today I woke up, it felt like yesterday was like a dream, but it wasn't. Oh welll. it was cooooooooool. : )

Am online now, only because I'm waiting for any updated slides or anything for the presentation tmr. SO TIRED PLS!!!!! have been staying back in school almost every day for rehearsals for the final pitch and waiting for other groups.... Omg, this routine is sick.

AND ALTHOUGH EVERY DAY WAS SO DRAINING AND WHATEVER, today was the ultimate bomb. I SO TOTALLY DIDNT REGRET GOING FOR TODAY'S CONNECT EVENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 THE FOOD WAS <3 <3, AND PEOPLE WERE <3 <3 AS ALWAYS. shit, I really really love my batch people toooo toooooo much. They are seriously too awesome. I love random hugs when we see each other and sudden outburst of laughter or just waving frantically at each other or shouting each other's name or giving weird names to each other. Aiyah, I LOVE THE YEAR 3s!!!!!! <3

Ok!

So, I fell sick on the first day of the week and was feeling absolutely horrendous the whole entire day.. and then!!! my uncle called to say that my aunt has delivered!!!!! it's a baby giirlll!!! and there she is over there.

after that, me and my sister went to my grandma's house to have dinner and then my dad picked us up to Thomson Medical Centre to visit my new cousin!! That place is amazing, like once you step inside the maternity ward you feel instant.. BLISS. and she was so small, like one and half loaf of bread. Her english name hasnt been decided.. but her chinese name has, hello ruixi!!!!!

Mmmmm

I had a really hearty breakfast today!!!! Like what a quote says, eat your breafast like a king, and I sure did. Had beehoon with runny egg and fishcake (runny eggs and fishcake combo!!! ), and then chee kueh (i love those oily circular thingss) and then a bowl of hot tau huey!!! ULTIMATE GREASE BOMB (cept for the tau huey) but soooo gooooood.

and then I had a hearty, hearty dinner. My ah pa whipped up some stir-fried udon with shitake mushrooms, ginger and garlic. FRIGGING HELL JUST MUSHROOMS GINGER AND GARLIC AND IT MADE ME GO CRRRAAAAZEEHH like a wild child. His current obsession is now udon, after eating some really goood udon last week from some japanese restaurant. that's how good my ah pa is.

and I am excited to eat at my grandma's tmr! I can't wait to seee what she's cooking. Her springrolls always spring me up, and the thought of sesame oil coated chicken slipping into my mouth is making me so hungry now. Oh shit. I realize I keep blogging about food and school. bear with me people!!!!

FYP

FYP PRESENTATION IS FINAAALLLYY OVERR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we went home late last night, cause we were the very last team to present! and elaine's the presenter before me, and she's damnn funnny she's forever making me laugh, and during her presentation I HAD TO REALLY SINK MY FINGER NAILS into my poor hands so that I could refrain from laughing cause I was the next presenter and I didnt want to screw our entire team up like how I screwed my presentation for EOF by laughing through 3/4 of my presentation... AND I DIDNT LAUGH!!!! I felt all clammy and cold just waiting for our turn to present and my mouth was stiffened to even break into a smile. and after everything, I thought all hopes were lost... and everyone was in a pretty sian mood cause we thought we didn't do very welll...

AND TODAY WHEN I CHECKED MY EMAILLLL, I REALIZED WE'RE ONE OF THE TOP 3 TEAMS TO PRESENT THE PITCH TO OUR CLIENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh. my. gosh. I feel like I could do anything right now. (Y) OUTREACH TEAM A!!!!

I misss flower, bitch and shia labeouf. But life goes on. : (

I haven't really been updating much, just bits and scraps on how I'm feeling. But lately I've been feeling crappish. Have been staying late in school every single day, lessons which end super early in the day were only there to mislead us. Early days which you though you could go shopping, watch a movie or just go home, are actually strategically arranged in a way that we could have the rest of the day doing... FYP (a.k.a final year project). But!!! I must say I am starting to know my group mates alot better (cause half of them are from different classes) and it's not awkward now, considering how much time.. we have spent in just two weeks.

then come home, eat, watch tv and then too tired to do anything so I sleep at 10. Sounds like what a primary school kid would do right? Ok maybe not. primary school kids nowadays very happening, got a lot of life. Morning classes are dreadful, I only like tuesdays.

and I really misssss hanging out with peopleeee i loooveee.

Fooood

I really havent been watching what I eat. I just ate pizza hut with my sister again!!!!! i binge eat sometimes, and I know it's bad but the feeling of stuffing down 6 slices of pizza feels... phenomenal and then after all that, I feel good. and then.. I start to feel horrible. like now. : (

Need. to. stay. positive.

Me and sak couldn't do filming for aaron : ( and FYP presentation tmr !!!!!!!!!

I feeeel.... crappy. Yeah, that's what.. I'm feeling now.

Sorry : (

I feel like I have been super mean lately. I don't really know why.. Like really really mean!!! oh welll.

But on the other hand, I like to send happy good morning messages to random people whom i care about during my 7.30am train ride to school, and receiving their replies. hahahah.

I'm going to miss both of you, more than you know it. : ( and both of you don't know the existance of my blog.. but oh well. I REALLY REALLY AM!!!!

MARK KOH YOUR EMAILS ARE SO @!#*)(@!*#). WHY YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME CRY : (

Today, I was too harsh on a friend I love alot. I'm sorry!!!!! :(

I just mopped the floor. I hate doing house chores. I feel like cinderella, without the glass slippers, prince charming and fairy god mother.

Yesterday

So I have been feeling crappy for almost every day in the entire week but yesterday.. was SUPER EPIC FUUN!!!!!!! cause i went to weiwen's house last night! cause he's gonna enlist next monday and we wanted to meet up for the last time before he goes in soo.. yeah.

His family cheered me up into bitssss, I love everyone in there. Felt like all my troubles melted away and I didn't need to care about them then. 3/4 of the time that I was there, I spent it on my laughing my heart out cause everyone so cute there!!! watched HBO with his entire family on the couch, ate cheeesecake that he made for me, having a heart to heart talk with his mother and his younger brothers were showing me around, and looking at random old childhood things and old photo albums, with his mother snapping alot of pictures of me and I don't know why and blasting music at 11pm int he night and singing taylor swift songs.. Omg.

I'm so gonna miss you bitch, pls take care!!!

: )

Talking to my sister over dinner was the best part of the weeeeeek. I've been so preoccupied with my own thoughts, I totally forgot to share them with her. and she bought me a blueberry tart!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) and it feels good to be happy tonight.

Another Sundayyy..

So went to town yesterday to seeee sak perm her hairr and bei bao to trim his browsss!!!! sak looks super high fashion now, seriously SERIOUSLY!!!!!! it's so vintage high fashion. i screamed when i saw her, HAHAHAHH!!!!

so it's a sunday again!!! My family members have different obsessions. my dad has this obsession of cooking chicken curry on weekends, and he cooked it again this sunday, I don't know why but he thinks it isn't perfect but I think it's super super perfect already!!!! and now my mom and sis switched to watching korean dramas, instead of hong kong dramas, they really super hardcore drama fanatics. and my obsession? I don't really have one now, hahha.


sis: HAN!! QUICK, I SHOW YOU SOMETHING!!!

me: huh what??!

sis: I BOUGHT NEW SHOES!!!!!

me: WHAT NOOO YOU SO DID NOT

sis: I SO DID!!! I quickly rushed and hid it in the storeroom at a nice safe spot : )


my sister and her obsession with shoes. SHE REALLY HAS ALOT ALOT SHOES

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY : (

my pretty momma


my handsome ah pa
























my sister and I've constipated smiles

Yesterday, went karaoke with my primary schoool kiddozz!!!!! I HAD SO SOO SOOO MUCH FUUNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's so strange how close we're getting, though it's our 2nd meet up, i felt like I know them for yearrrssss. More outings to come :)

Today, went for ice cream therapy with an old friend. : )

and then, went for one of my dear friend's father's wake. : ( I felt really really sad, even though I don't even know her father personally.. but just seeing her so tired and sad made me cry and made me hug her so tightly I didn't want to let go. and I saw kent!!!! it's been sooo long, i misssed him and he cheered me up. Pls take care li ling!!!!! i love you so much, <3

Ugh stupid weather

Today's event was really damn fun, even though it's really screwed. I don't know how to say this.. but yeah, that's how it was. We were told to be there at 7, and we did absolutely nothing until like 8.15 all the lecturers and people in charge started finding us to tell us the super last min. changes when the event was going to start in half an hour's time and we didnt have any rehearsals before that and we were so afraid to screw up in front of so many people, but... We didn't!!! Ok we did, a little.. but everyone laughed at our mistakes, and it was all in the name of FUN. i had fun.

Came back home and swam, the weather's so crazy that the pool's water was actually LUKE WARM!!!!!! Omggg, just the way I like my soya milk to be. So I was imagining swimming in a biiiigggggg cup of lukewarm soya milk and I felt disgusted. BUT YAYY!!! I FINALLY EXERCISED!!! All the crap food I have been discreetly eating and throwing away the evidence so my mother doesn't find out. Hehehe : D

And my dear sister bought like 300g of famous amous cookies and I WONDER HOW SHE ACTUALLY FINISHED EVERYTHING until left 5 nia, in frigging 3 days?!?!??! I know that's possible, but I don't really eat.. cookies the hardcore way.

It's raining heavily now and I suddenly thought of flower. Thoughts of tidal waves crashing on his ship and everything scare me. Please be okay, flower!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. 7AM IN SCHOOL TMR. FRIIGGGING 7AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??!??????????????????????????/////////

Plans cancelled and postponed todayy cause birthday girl couldnt make it : ( But it's ok!!! I needed a good rest today anyway. I really had a good rest!!!! Had time to make a birthday card and did up cue cards for tmr's event. It's been a long time since I last hosted an event.. and I'm doing it with my favourite boy. : )

I was bored so I went to look through old photo albums and I found this one with all my mom's old photos when she was a teenager. Wah, she really damn hot. and my dad was hot too. Hahahaha now also hot la. hahahahah. I like looking through my childhood photos, cause I never want to forget it. Everytime I ask my mom about her childhood, she forgot alot of things. But I want to remember mine regardless of my age, even when I am in my 40s, 50s, 60s and so on.

Another Sunday

My mom and sis are watching hong kong drama on their computers and it's damn annooyyinggg, I'm reeally starting to get annoyed by the same old actors with bad make up and canto accent, damnnn annooyyyinnngggggg@!&#(*@&!#*(&9

and my mom has been coughing damn badly, and so the house is abit sick-ish, filled with sick air. Sometimes i feel sick when I am at home. I hope everyone will become welll and energetic againn.

weather damnn humid lately, super hottttttt. And we can't really switch on the aircon cause of the sick air. So can you imagine the sick air in my house COMBO together with the bloody weather?!?!??! It's deadly.

K then, in a few mins. , bei bao is coming over my house to do script together for our tuesday event. MOMMY PLS STOP WATCHING THE HONG KONG DRAMAAA, IT'S KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. : (

I felt like a really good friend yesterday. But today, I felt like a really bad daughter. I just left my mom to do grocery shopping alone, ALONE!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. : (

Goodbye, goodbye, good friend, goodbye

I can't believe I actually teared while reading mark's email to me. I REALLY AM GONNA MISS YOU FLOWER!!!!! it's so strange how we actually met and became friends, what a fascinating random phenomenon. and I actually woke up at 4 today just to send him offf with tams and we took the good ol' train. he's gonna be gone for 6 months, so yeah, I hope he will be fine. : )

so yesterday, we hung out at tam's before mark's farewell!!!!!!! wah seriously tams, your oreo cheeesecake is da bombbb I LOVE IT!!!!! we played wii and just lazed around when it was raining heavily outisde, it was really nice and warm. and mark fetched me and zach, i really have phobia taking his car. And the phobia grew even more when he fetched me home last night. WE TOOK ONE HOUR AND TEN MINS TO REACH MY HOUSE!!!!! to figure our way out from bukit batok to choa chu kang, when the train only takes like 2 stops?!?!?!??!?!? I really got damn scared, i mean both of us. HAHAHHAHAHHA BUT it was damn funny to get lost, damn funny. I am gonna miss it.

so i rushed from changi airport to schoool for SB FOP rehearsal, the people there are nice people!!! and went back home and crashed ont he bed for 3 hours and here I am. and I have to go back to school again at 7. T______T today was a long, draining, and sad day.

Met up with my primary school friends after 7 years!!! AND THE STRANGEST THING EVER was that, we weren't even awwkward with each other!!!! and all of our characters are stilll the same as we were 7 year back ago though our looks changed quite a bit! we had like endlesss things to talk, and we're even going out again next week!!!! is this like so cooool or what?!?!? and most of us have friends who are like each other's friends now, it's a really really small world. But what can I say, singapore is small!

then WHIP IT IS A GREAT MOVIE! watched it with saks today!!! WAH WE COUPLE SEATS!!! SO ROMANTIC!!!! we really thought we were going to be the only ones in the theatre, but no :/ but still very little people and i think we made the most noise anyway, hahaha. damn fuuunnn <3

Sunday

So everything ends on a Sunday, whether the week was good or not, depends on how you feel on Sunday. I don't really know what to do on Sundays and I never wanted to do anything on that day anyway. But yeah, most of the time, I feel good. Feels very serene today, the chilly weather and wrapping myself in my fav. snuggly yellow blanket.

Last week, I really had a crappy Sunday cause I had crap thoughts flooding my mind. But this week's good, though the day hasn't ended. There're somethings we've to learn to let them roll when you know nothing good is going to come out of them. No matter how much you like them or desire to have them, wellll... some things are meant to be yours and some things will never be.

friend says:
EAT THIS BITCH _|_
send this
works aaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllll the time
99% of the people don't reply anymore
1% of them, truly deserves to eat it

Broke because I had kuishinbo for lunch this weeek, $32
Broke because I bought this reeeaaally nice highwaisted pants, $45.90
Broke because I had 2 cups of milk tea this week, $3.80
Broke because I upsized my pon tian nooodles, $4.50
Broke because I had Mcspicy extra value meal for dinner today, $6.75
Broke because I bought identical shirts with IBS2 (it was on sale!!!!), $29.90


OMG i SPENT $122.85 THIS WEEEK. Sian.

Kkkkkk great i am broke. but I had a really good week. : )

Bliss

HAHHA I FOUND THIS AT SAK'S BLOG. Well, happiness is slowly trickling back again! THANK YOU MY LOVELY FRIENDS AND FAMILLYYY, EACH EVERY ONE OF YOUUuu who would always be there for me no matter what.

Ok, so like 3 more weeks of holidays left! and I'll be embarking on my fiinalll yearr, which sounds scary, unpredictable and saddening. It's sad because I would be leaving SP and SP is like family to me, one of the places where I met all the greatest people I would ever meet in my entire life, place with goooooood food that reminds me of home sometimes, and the greatest and coolest lecturers whom we can just talk to like friends, no stress talking to them and popping by their rooms to just chit chat and steal foood, sooo many things I've learnt and grown from them and there was never once where I felt alone or lonely in school because I've the greatest friends around me all the time. <3

And it's also sad that old lecturers are leaving and the new ones are coming, and I don't really like the idea of that, but what to do? :( The only modules I'm looking forward to next sem would be broadcast journalism and radio production, the two elective modules I'm soo blooody lucky to get into and in the same classs as IBS2 as well!!!!! damn happy. and of course, LUNCH TIMEEEEE, I LOVE LUNCH TIME and spending time during lectures thinking of what to eat every time.

K BYE : )

Went out with mark and tammy yesterday and it was pretty funnn AND SHIOOKKK. and then mark insisted to drive us back home when alll i REALLY WANNTED was to take the darn MRT homeeeeee. And we had to make rounds and rounds just because he's not very good with directions and neither were me and tammy. HAHAHHAaa it was crazy, first time sitting in a friend's car with my friend driving.

I FEEEEL GOOOOOOOODDDD ALREADAY!!!!!

It's good to let go off things sometimes. And I went shopping with old friend, szehui!!!! Omg, I misss her tooo muchhhh, had too many things to say to each other!!!! <3

I don't know why but I'm still mad angry inside, scolding all sorts of bad names I can think of describing the worst of you in my brain. And then I realized, it's not gonna help the situation at all.

Awww, thanks guys.


: )

Round round round

I'm missing all the takoyaki I ate today. Oh those crunchy round balls of happiness. I had 10!!!

Don't care already, today happy day!!! And drank our milk tea as usual. The world seemed alot brighter today, cause the happy three friends went out. and finally met MY BABY TAMMMYYYY HAHAHAHHA. I think she'll annoyed when she sees this.

It has been raining for daysssss and dayss!!!!! I don't why but I havent been in the best of moods, issit a sign that my bloody sloppish meatball companion is coming?

Yesterday I didn't go to my grandma's house cause I was sleeping all the sleep that I havent slept for the past night. But my mom packed foood fromthere!!! Like alot of foood!!! And although it wasn't hot anymore, I felt warm instantly. : )

I don't want to socialize so much anymore. I don't really want to be bubbly. I don't really want to talk to some people. I am rude sometimes. I don't really know what's with me now, but I hope this feeeling is temporary!

Boo, you whore.

I'm back from camp with a scratched throat and aching joints. Whispering talks, blankie talks and taboo had been fun. Jit tells super scary ghost stories, kns. :(

I had another great day today : )

so I was brushing my teeth just now and I took a peeep in my parent's roooom and my rooom where my sister was sleeping, they were sleeping so soundly and I realize how much I love them. :')

DOo dooo dooooo

Today was one of the best days of holidaysss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111 havent had sooooo much funnnnnnnnnnnnn for a really long time.

and I just ate dinner, and the uncle cheated me of one fishball!!! ONE FISHBALLLL!!!!! I was suppose to have 4 but noooooooooo. But whatever. Today = HAPPPPPPPPYYYYYY <3

Ugh

I feel that my morning/afternoon is screwed. I don't like reporting my every single move to show that I'm such a happening person, because well, I'm not. Ugh, stupid PRICKKK. i finally found something suitable to use that word. Sometimes people really annoy the shit out of me.

Breakfast

So while we were having our prata breakfast this morning,


pa: I'M THE PRATA OF THE KING!



hahahahhahaha

Spring Clean!

Ok, I decided to clear my cabinet fullll of rubbish. ok, not rubbish. Ughhh, I hate being so sentimental cause I KEPT ALL THAT STUFFF SINCE LIKE PRI 3!!!! Do you guys do that??? I really have super ancient things.

Like the primary 2 disgusting piggybank I didn't want to throw away and ended up throwing away. and the wrapping paper of my first ever valentine's day chocolate from a boy who liked me, omg I don't even rmb keeeping that. and my autograph books I've kept.. and all the comics I drew when I was primary 5. I have plenty of series where I photocopied and sold them to my classmates for a dollar. And out of all the stufff, I ended up throwing away 1/8 of the stuff away. hahahha so much for wanting to spring clean.

I find it weird when people tell me that they're hungry. Uhm, then go get some food to eat?

: )

I am getting really uncreative with my titles. Went to pris house to play with her dog, chocolate! I just sat there stroking him for 2 long hours till he fell asleep while pris and I talked. and then went to meet aaron yesterday, I haven't seen him in the longest time!! and then went to meet ww to talk again. I have been meeting people to just... talk. But talking is nice, I like talking.

Talking to some idiot right now who's driiiving meee nutssssss but having so much fun at the same time. hahahahaha. Oh shit. 1.18 am.

Just now on the train there was this shabby looking guy with crummy dirty fingernails who smelt like a pile of soaking wet rags, sat next to me, listening to some really loud TECHNO MUSIC. UGHHHHH#@!(*#*(!@& it was so annoying that I burst out laughing! and embarrassed myself, yet again.

I hate doing house chores. : ( and my mother very smart.


me: Ma, can give me 80 dollars for the dental thing

mom: That time in DECEMBER papa gave you $800 for the wisdom tooth surgery right? then you used up only $700, so still got $100.

me: ..... *SIAN*

Tuesdays with Yanhan

Today was yet another rot-at-home day. Was supppose to go happy with cheena gang to go sing cheena songs at cheena kbox but in the end I had dental!!! Now, I'm waiting for 3.40 to come so I can go for my teeeth cleaaanning session and then jelle belle's yami yoghurt time after dinner!

What I'm doing now is watching my giant vitamin C pill fizzle in a glass of water. today's weather super hot !!!! buay ta han.

:' )

Hugh Dancy made me cry today in Adam.

I read random dusty old books I found at the back of my shelf today and great, I developed a sore eye but it'z okay now!!!

Now that's how I like to spend my first few days of holidays. Alone.

I don't really want to talk to you anymore.

I don't really care.

I really, really don't care.

That's kinda sad. :/

Irving. says:
Haha, always be proud of your achievements =)

Thanks dooode, I will see you soon-ish!!!! : )

The Art of drinking

I have always thought that men should drink black coffee with no sugar, and tea is for girlies like me. I mean, in the movies you've heard people saying, "Have some tea, my lovely lady." People don't say that sentence for nothing.

But my dad's an exception. He can drink both coffee and tea. He always have his cup of coffee ready for the morning, and after he drinks it and says, "Ok, I'll go to work now." under his coffee breath, it's like whoaaaaaa, this man's gonna work soo haaard to feed his family of four, it's sooo unbelievably manly.

And he just had this hot green tea that I made for him awhile ago and under his green tea breath he said, "Ok, I shall go iron some clothes now." and i was like whoaaaaaa. It felt like a samurai ready to embark on his next dangerous mission. It's just different.

I rmb I heard from somewhere that you would end up falling in love with a guy like your father. I think it's unbelievably true. I want a guy who can drink both coffee and tea and makes you feeel like, WOW. He's a real man.

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So my friends have gotten back their A level results and most of them did soup-er good. I'm really happy for them! Somehow, I can't stop thinking what it would have been like if I were to take their route and sit for the A levels. Would I get trashy grades? Yeah. Probably.

I rmb vividly an ex goodfriend of mine gave me perfectly sound advice that she would go find the tallest building in Singapore and jump and end her life if she had gotten my grades for O levels. But yeah, we havent been friends for the longest time since... and the more I think of it, the more motivated I get to study!!!! YEAH thank you ex friend for your super words of wisdom, which have brought me through my exams for these 2 years. I'm done with exams!!!!! For now. Cause there wouldn't be exams for my year 3, and I am not at all psyched about my final year project. i really dont like the sound of the word "green" or the colour green anymore, I'm sorry zhengyan if you see this. :(

Ohh. Crap. I dont know why I'm feeling this way. I dont knowwwwwwwwwwww

: ))

I LOVE YOU TAMMYY!!!

I really do, please good care in Cambodia you lovely kind-hearted Samaritan <3

:D :D :D

I AM OVER THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAKO-YAKI @ ION, REDEEMED OUR 10 PIECE TAKO YAKIIIIIIII CAUSE MY CARD FULL OF CHOPS, WAH WE LOYAL FANS SIA, I HAD 9 CAUSE TAMMY GAVE ME ONE, XIE XIE TAMMY JIE. TAKO YAKI FOREVAAAAAAA. PLUS EACH-A-CUP MILK TEA. TODAY IS BLISS. <3

and shopping!!!!!!! wah funnnnn, cause jit paid me $1 to try 3 sets of clothes at river island. $1 so easy to earn can?!?!?!??!?! ok not very, cause the clothes he picked were HIDEOUS. SO HIDEOUS, they should be burned.

I had so much fun it's starting to hurt in my head. crap, that always happens when I am overly happy.

: (

I was relieved cause another paper is down!!!! and went for a good lunch with tams and we sure ate alottttttt.

But once I came home, I plunged into this deeeep black misery. It's like drinking coffee without sugar - so dark and miserable. Dark and miserable. I havent smiled since. I sure got a trash load of law to study for. GO GO GOOOOOO CLASSSMATESSSS!!! WE CAN DO THIS!!!

: )

My dad's back!!!! Somehow,everything seems to fall back into place again. : )

: (

I always get partially depressed whenever my dad goes overseas, and he hasn't texted mom the whole day and he usually would. I know it can't be helped but ugh, screw this feeeeeliiinnngggg. Today's just not a very happy day.

Hot.

At times like these, I feel like transforming into a big slab of salmon and resting peacefully in the fridge till the day someone takes me out and bakes me in good ol' black pepper sauce.