My poor couzie

Last friday night my couzie got knocked down by a taxi when he was crossing the road correectly, with the green man and all!! We only got to visit him on saturday. When we arrived, only my uncle was there cause couzie had to be sent to have his head stitched up. And we waited for at least 2 hours, but we all spent the time talking about my couzie's school problems and alll. He's a smart boy, never studied for his o levels and got a LR15 of 12, and got into tampines JC and he's reaally really good in tennis. And this year, is his A level year and its only like a few months away and this accident had to happen :(

Couzie got wheeled in from his 30 over stitches on his head. I got a shock when I saw him and tears instantly welled up my eyes. My mom, sis and grandma started crying as well. He had wounds all over him, his eyes were swelled up like eggs and his head was wrapped up, he hands were filled with deep scratches, patchy deep red. His nose was swollen and had scratches all over it as well. But the lucky thing was that his cheeks and forehead were spared from scratches. His lips suffered from deep black scratches, like the wounds were black, and he prolly got them when his teeth sunk into them during the accident.

My uncle also said couzie suffered from slight amnesia, he couldnt rmb anything of this accident and why he ended up inthe hospital. He looked so scared, i could see it from his eyes cause tears were brimming his red eyes as well. Then I held his hand, it was cold and there were so many injuries on them. :( :( Poor couzie :(:( But i guess hes SUPER LUCKY, to have survived this with his brain unaffected from injuries and that he's still alive.

this holiday has been one of the most fulfilling holidays i ever had!!! cause of work partially and just hanging out with the people i love. I feel like i'm secretly blessed. Like how I was suppose to be working for topshop and plans were changed and i was made to work at FOX instead. First few days of work were never easy, getting lost, communication barriers w people... but the people there were really accomodating, especially my supervisor, she say the nicest encouraging things to me and I get my breaks and get to leave work on the dot. I'm gonna miss ION orchard's FOX, no matter how much I complained and whined.

It was my last day yesterday and I finalllyy got to properly talk to my other filipino colleague, cause i was doing the night shift w him and towards the end of the day, he was giving me clothes to try on and i was playing dresss up with theclothes and he let me sneak in Happy Lemon to drink during work!!! damn awesome, gonna misss takoyaki, fishball noodles and happy lemon.

But! Im gonna work at Suntec's FOX now!!! Though I dont think I would work for long...especially when school's starting soon.

Monday

Omg, had the most awesome sleeeeeep!!!!!!!! I really think after having a baby in the family, my grandma's getting jollier by the week. I can't talk to babies very welll, my pa's very goood at it though, he makes all the sound effects like pew pew pew zooooooom. I really really like my baby cousin tooo, shes the tiniest cupcake in the family now and brings so much joy every week.

Another week's gone?!

this first weeek of holi has been eventful!! I found a job, hehe. At ion orchard's FOX, so visit whenever you can k? I dont think I will be working there every day and every minute though.

Then had like shopping w the lochnesses, karaoke, xiao long bao buffet and teeeeaaaa... and tmr surprisingly, I DONT HAVE WORK!!!! maybe i will be gg to fly kite again!!! flying kite is super fun. and i dont have work on sunday tooo!!!! Yay I can go my ah ma's house.

first day of work was pretty alright, people working there arent exactly my age group, but they are pretty friendly! and customers were pretty nice too, I havent really seeen any mean ones around. There are so many things to remember!!! But making a customer happy, makes me happy too. :)

ICE CREAM THERAPY!!

Something made me really happy today, MY ICE CREAM FIX LIKE FINALLY I GOT IT. and my pa's slurpy horfun, now i need to go for like, a buffet.

The Mighty Fighter

ANYWAY my pa got a new camera! olympus something something, has the exact same functions as tam's camera just a smaller and much different version.

and its 2 weeks left till ww flies off to Australia for his pilot training course. I'm really really excited for him cause if he passes, I AM GONNA HAVE A PILOT FRIEND!!!!!! todays kite flying was awesome, ww really is meant for flying. we named the kite the mighty fighter and we even have a theme song!! and up in the sky, it went.... till the sky went dark, but we could still see mighty fighter clinging on in the wind like a fighter.

O-O-OVERRR

Omg!!!!! SO MANY THINGS ARE FINALLY OVER THIS WEEK!!!!! Submission week was hell, but screw it, handed in PRW, FYP, Broadcast, Radio AND FINISHED MOCK PRESS CONFERENCE CA TODAY!!!!

I can't tell you how relieved I am. But projects over exams anytime, hahahahha, i like the rushing of projects and getting stressed up and depressed and wanting to cry with friends and when its over, the feeling is like glitter and confetti falling from the sky. Today's CA felt pretty real, it was like there were cameras, warm bright lights hitting on us and evil cold stares from the journalists. I almost freaked out, BUT IT WAS COOOL I GUESSS, we did goooood i hope!!!

We finally got our broadcast done, filming was a bitch and carrying equipment and alll and THANK YOU BEIII for always carrying the camera, you're a real man in my heart :) editting was even bitchier, though it was simple... something so simple, things got so complex O___O had to keep re-saving stuffff. sighhh, but edmund was in a real good mood this week so, thank goodness for that kind old soul!!!!!!! plus CDs somemore!!! he gave us CDs!!!!!awwww

And radio!!!!! radio was another slut, ughhhhhhh recording and EDITTING + COMPILING O___O I could almost die. But! It was a group effort and all of us did it together and Iam so proud to have this CA done cause we did a freaking 1 hour radio show, 1 HOUR!!!! editting and recording for a 3min CA was already *@!(#(, and we a 1 hour one this time with jingles and sound effects!!!!! damn frigging awesome.

it's our last time slogging our guts out in DMC, I'm gonna miss that feeling, so so so soooo much.

Don't we all have dreams?

A conversation I rmb I had with my dad


while we were watching animal planet


pa: wah i think those hosts like having alot of fun

me: do you wish you could have their job?

pa: yeah...

me: welll, i will work towards that, maybe you can see me next time on tv on animal planet, in africa or sth

pa: really? i would love to see that

me: yeah, i would love to make you see that too

"Sure, we all have things we want to change, to improve about ourselves. But underneath the flesh and bone, you are an immortal and perfect soul. Always remember that."

Your stare

Somehow I can never forget the way you look at me, I dont think you know it, cause you do it subconsciously.

Its like the time when you were sitting in front of me in class, and you would randomly turn your head around and just, stare at me, for no good reason when I asked you why. And when teacher made a joke and everyone laughed, you would always turn and see if i was laughing and you would laugh if i laughed, and if i didnt laugh you would ask me why, but the reason was obvious cause... it wasnt funny to me? Or the time when you were sitting beside me, and you stared me, with your mucus dripping down your nose cause you always had morning sinus and I would always have to give you tissue. During those times when we sat together, we hardly talked anyway, but i just know you were and still are a really good starer. And you would walk funnily and you would laugh really really loud and you were always the loud one. You were a smart boy, like, good in almost every subject and you had a really cute handwriting like a girl's.

but that night, you hardly laughed or smiled, maybe because i wasn't really a funny person or maybe, you know, we never understood each other. We grew and we changed. You have really big arms now, which remindsme of a pokemon, machoke, the one with really big arms. And you have ugly short hair, but i don't blame you, cause it wasnt your fault when you had to cut it in the army. But you were always cute and really nice teeth, I have always thought you were cute since day 1. But i kinda liked your company, even though we were silent at some points. And when you told me you have always thought i was pretty, it melted my heart. when you stared at me with your kinda stare again, I couldn't look into your eyes and you were so frustrated and said "LOOK INTO MY EYES!!!" and i laughed and you said "Ok maybe staring would be easier, stare at me." But I couldn't do it cause it would make me wannna mess up and rufffle your short bristle-ish hair and hug you and say OMG YOU ARE SOOO CUUUUUTE. And when i grow up, this will always be part of me, cause you;ve been in my life for a really long time.

To Marky, my beautiful flower

Hello Marky, I dont know whether you will ever see this, maybe you would and I just wannna say it hurts me to see you like this and I really hope you're gonna be happy again and I dont know what else I could do to make things better but just be the happy crazy marky I used to know :(

yanhan says:
ook...haha everything to you is stupid anyway

- says:
haha er no?
not you


something that made my night a little less colder :)

i feel like everything's back on track now! i no longer need to think so hard, actually i dont know why i keep thinking so hard when i already knew the answer at the back of my mind, but i guess i was in self denial. Self denial mode is crazily scary, it's self destructive and it hurts. BUT ITS OK!!! i'm happpy, settled stufff, and i feeel brand new. i feel like myself again, the weird girl, i mean, the happy weird girl!!!!

PS, its ok if you dont understand what the hell i am writing, i just wanted to say,thats all. Life with good friends is really wonderful, and blessed.

i finished toodle's first pack of 10 films alreday!!!! i heart toodle, though alot of money fly away, but i heart toodle

:X

I feeel horrible. I probably didnt even sleeep last night, kept waking up to eat lozenges then drink water than go toilet then go back to sleeep then cough then drink more water then sleeeep then go toilet ITS A CYCLE, i hate sleeeping with a bad throat cause i know i wont sleep.

and i have got sooo muchhh to dooooooooooooo wish me luck i shalll try doing something

I dont know why, but it just suddenly dawned upon me that, happinesss doesnt just fall from the sky, if you sit and wait stupidly for it to happen, you are never gonna be happy. You have to go..and..make it happen! like yeah!!!! k i know damn random

tonights gonna be awesome though i have a bad throat i dont care i am gonnna stufff myself sillly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday!

i am an evil sloth, I dont even know how to start this... CIBM project that costs 35% of the overalll grade and it's an individual project!!!! and i have to solely depend on myself and i feel lost, cause theres sooo much to do and i have no idea on how to do it. oh wellll.

but I had a really fun dayyy yesterday!!! going out and alllll, so much fun that i had a throbbing headache, you know the kind of headache i always get when i get too overly excited and i have too much fun. oh! and i bought a new camera!! used my birthday money to get it, i kinda named it and it's called toodle. i have been wanting to get that for a really long time and I DONT KNOWWW I think its really cooool. :) i feeeel like my life is complete right now, for awhile. i am realllyy looking forward to monday!!! hanging out with flower and alll, it's gonna be fun :)

OH WAIT!! I cant believe I forgot to blog that MY FINAL YEAR PROJECT IS OVER!!!!!!!!

for now... there's still a long report to write and post stupid stuff on the forum. I have been writing like a writing machine for this entire sem, writing writing writing and mooooreee writing! and then i realized i do like writing, but i dont think i can do it long term.. its really tiring and makes my brain feel empty.

and it's the final lap, FINAL LAP AFTER YOG BREAK!!! Gonna chiong like there's no tomorrow, and I am gonna be like, the number 1 tai ko student, and live up to my name of tai ko empress.

Home early

Yay! I am home early, again, I really really like days like these. It feels like a friday, but it isn't a friday. ITS A THURSDAY!

I dont know why but i am itching to get a fujifilm instax mini!!!!! but that would also mean... my savings for the past few months, HAHahha i am a bad saver i know. i mean it's sooo coooool, but my love for something like this can be short, i dont knowww and me and sak were thinking of splitting the cost and sharing the cammera hahahhahahaha, oh wellllll. and who knows I might actually really get it like tmr or sth?!!?!?!? omg the sudden feeling of wanting to buy something really badly, I havent got that for a really long time.

and I am gg shopping w my sister tmr!!! i havent really got the time to go out w her since she's such a busy busy teacher. i am missing alot of ppl right now, you guys are on my mind... <3

Today.... WE WENT TO SEE KATY PERRY!!!! at mediacorp, entertainment on 5! They showered soooo much love on her I swear, including this gigantic beautifuuuull cake someone made for her and she actually dunked the entire cake on some random boy in the audience lol. I feel sorry for that doode who spent hours and hours making it for her and in a split second, the cake was wasted and thrown on somerandom person.... BUT it was given to her and she could do anything to it I guessss!

we were given free gigantic pink sticky lollipops to wave in the air and some giant candy squishy wrapped in cellophine paper and pretty posters and we had to like wave them around like siao and screeeaaam!!!!! out of all the mediacorp visits i have been, this, is the besst BESTTT visit I ever had!!! she was such a cutie, very very cute!

then back to the boring stufff on FYP... oh welll.