My comfort things

1. Yellow blankie

2. Sashimi

3. Pokka green tea

Basketball

The ball is in my court, I don't know what to do with it. I know I kinda wanna play with the basketball, BUT WHAT IF I LOSE? I'm bad at basketball.

Then I don't play it, I sit on the bench and watch other people. Then the wind comes and the ball starts drifting away...slowly. Then I think, welll! If I am meant to play basketball, the basketball will come back to me, I wouldn't need to play it now. I don't care about it, BUT IT KEEPS ROLLING BACK TO ME. I never wanted to play basketball cause I've always thought, I'm not good enough to play it. I pick it up and throw it into another court, but it rolls back to me, every time.

And the ball's back in my court again

School is not cool.

Omgoshhhh, this semester has been the most boring thing that has ever happpened on this planet. With only two modules and two of the most boring lecturers......SAAAVE USSSSS :( sigh.

Chunks of things in my soup

Welll, I havent blogged for a long time!!!! Im gonna blog about yesterday, about this msn convo i had with bei, it was like random and sudden, like always, like any other day, actually come to think of it, i talk to him every single day.

Just that yesterday, it was on a sudden... sad topic. We talked about bullies and being different and all, and i felt so sad,and if we were to talk about this over ice cream, i would have really bawled like siao.

Im damn mean, but whatever

lady on the phone: helloo, could you help me do a survey?

me: on what?

lady: on financial statuses

me: uhm, no

lady: why not?

me: cause i'm not interested

lady: can i get your parents to do it for me?

me: they are not at home

lady: should i call back later?

me: no you shouldnt

lady: why not?

me: they wouldnt be interested too

lady: ok, i will just call back later ok?

me: NO DONT CALL BACK



omg stupid lady

My jolly holi wolly

YAY Im back from my 3 day escapade to KLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl, i mean KL. We went there cause mommy had some free hotel accomodation. We ate alot and i enjoyed it sooo much cause I spent it w the fam!!!!!! And I love my fam. We love each other so much that all four of us slept on ONE KING SIZED bed cause we only had one room, one bed. I CANT BELIEVE WE DID THAT but yeah we did it. I felt homesick the minute I reached that place and it was weird, cause it was only 3 days and my family was there, but i reallly miissssed my beeeddddd and blankie.

Work for another 2 more weeks!!!!! I cant wait for work to end, btw im still at the ion outlet! they transferred me back, hahahha. I. CANT. WAAAAIITT

My poor couzie

Last friday night my couzie got knocked down by a taxi when he was crossing the road correectly, with the green man and all!! We only got to visit him on saturday. When we arrived, only my uncle was there cause couzie had to be sent to have his head stitched up. And we waited for at least 2 hours, but we all spent the time talking about my couzie's school problems and alll. He's a smart boy, never studied for his o levels and got a LR15 of 12, and got into tampines JC and he's reaally really good in tennis. And this year, is his A level year and its only like a few months away and this accident had to happen :(

Couzie got wheeled in from his 30 over stitches on his head. I got a shock when I saw him and tears instantly welled up my eyes. My mom, sis and grandma started crying as well. He had wounds all over him, his eyes were swelled up like eggs and his head was wrapped up, he hands were filled with deep scratches, patchy deep red. His nose was swollen and had scratches all over it as well. But the lucky thing was that his cheeks and forehead were spared from scratches. His lips suffered from deep black scratches, like the wounds were black, and he prolly got them when his teeth sunk into them during the accident.

My uncle also said couzie suffered from slight amnesia, he couldnt rmb anything of this accident and why he ended up inthe hospital. He looked so scared, i could see it from his eyes cause tears were brimming his red eyes as well. Then I held his hand, it was cold and there were so many injuries on them. :( :( Poor couzie :(:( But i guess hes SUPER LUCKY, to have survived this with his brain unaffected from injuries and that he's still alive.

this holiday has been one of the most fulfilling holidays i ever had!!! cause of work partially and just hanging out with the people i love. I feel like i'm secretly blessed. Like how I was suppose to be working for topshop and plans were changed and i was made to work at FOX instead. First few days of work were never easy, getting lost, communication barriers w people... but the people there were really accomodating, especially my supervisor, she say the nicest encouraging things to me and I get my breaks and get to leave work on the dot. I'm gonna miss ION orchard's FOX, no matter how much I complained and whined.

It was my last day yesterday and I finalllyy got to properly talk to my other filipino colleague, cause i was doing the night shift w him and towards the end of the day, he was giving me clothes to try on and i was playing dresss up with theclothes and he let me sneak in Happy Lemon to drink during work!!! damn awesome, gonna misss takoyaki, fishball noodles and happy lemon.

But! Im gonna work at Suntec's FOX now!!! Though I dont think I would work for long...especially when school's starting soon.

Monday

Omg, had the most awesome sleeeeeep!!!!!!!! I really think after having a baby in the family, my grandma's getting jollier by the week. I can't talk to babies very welll, my pa's very goood at it though, he makes all the sound effects like pew pew pew zooooooom. I really really like my baby cousin tooo, shes the tiniest cupcake in the family now and brings so much joy every week.

Another week's gone?!

this first weeek of holi has been eventful!! I found a job, hehe. At ion orchard's FOX, so visit whenever you can k? I dont think I will be working there every day and every minute though.

Then had like shopping w the lochnesses, karaoke, xiao long bao buffet and teeeeaaaa... and tmr surprisingly, I DONT HAVE WORK!!!! maybe i will be gg to fly kite again!!! flying kite is super fun. and i dont have work on sunday tooo!!!! Yay I can go my ah ma's house.

first day of work was pretty alright, people working there arent exactly my age group, but they are pretty friendly! and customers were pretty nice too, I havent really seeen any mean ones around. There are so many things to remember!!! But making a customer happy, makes me happy too. :)

ICE CREAM THERAPY!!

Something made me really happy today, MY ICE CREAM FIX LIKE FINALLY I GOT IT. and my pa's slurpy horfun, now i need to go for like, a buffet.

The Mighty Fighter

ANYWAY my pa got a new camera! olympus something something, has the exact same functions as tam's camera just a smaller and much different version.

and its 2 weeks left till ww flies off to Australia for his pilot training course. I'm really really excited for him cause if he passes, I AM GONNA HAVE A PILOT FRIEND!!!!!! todays kite flying was awesome, ww really is meant for flying. we named the kite the mighty fighter and we even have a theme song!! and up in the sky, it went.... till the sky went dark, but we could still see mighty fighter clinging on in the wind like a fighter.

O-O-OVERRR

Omg!!!!! SO MANY THINGS ARE FINALLY OVER THIS WEEK!!!!! Submission week was hell, but screw it, handed in PRW, FYP, Broadcast, Radio AND FINISHED MOCK PRESS CONFERENCE CA TODAY!!!!

I can't tell you how relieved I am. But projects over exams anytime, hahahahha, i like the rushing of projects and getting stressed up and depressed and wanting to cry with friends and when its over, the feeling is like glitter and confetti falling from the sky. Today's CA felt pretty real, it was like there were cameras, warm bright lights hitting on us and evil cold stares from the journalists. I almost freaked out, BUT IT WAS COOOL I GUESSS, we did goooood i hope!!!

We finally got our broadcast done, filming was a bitch and carrying equipment and alll and THANK YOU BEIII for always carrying the camera, you're a real man in my heart :) editting was even bitchier, though it was simple... something so simple, things got so complex O___O had to keep re-saving stuffff. sighhh, but edmund was in a real good mood this week so, thank goodness for that kind old soul!!!!!!! plus CDs somemore!!! he gave us CDs!!!!!awwww

And radio!!!!! radio was another slut, ughhhhhhh recording and EDITTING + COMPILING O___O I could almost die. But! It was a group effort and all of us did it together and Iam so proud to have this CA done cause we did a freaking 1 hour radio show, 1 HOUR!!!! editting and recording for a 3min CA was already *@!(#(, and we a 1 hour one this time with jingles and sound effects!!!!! damn frigging awesome.

it's our last time slogging our guts out in DMC, I'm gonna miss that feeling, so so so soooo much.

Don't we all have dreams?

A conversation I rmb I had with my dad


while we were watching animal planet


pa: wah i think those hosts like having alot of fun

me: do you wish you could have their job?

pa: yeah...

me: welll, i will work towards that, maybe you can see me next time on tv on animal planet, in africa or sth

pa: really? i would love to see that

me: yeah, i would love to make you see that too

"Sure, we all have things we want to change, to improve about ourselves. But underneath the flesh and bone, you are an immortal and perfect soul. Always remember that."

Your stare

Somehow I can never forget the way you look at me, I dont think you know it, cause you do it subconsciously.

Its like the time when you were sitting in front of me in class, and you would randomly turn your head around and just, stare at me, for no good reason when I asked you why. And when teacher made a joke and everyone laughed, you would always turn and see if i was laughing and you would laugh if i laughed, and if i didnt laugh you would ask me why, but the reason was obvious cause... it wasnt funny to me? Or the time when you were sitting beside me, and you stared me, with your mucus dripping down your nose cause you always had morning sinus and I would always have to give you tissue. During those times when we sat together, we hardly talked anyway, but i just know you were and still are a really good starer. And you would walk funnily and you would laugh really really loud and you were always the loud one. You were a smart boy, like, good in almost every subject and you had a really cute handwriting like a girl's.

but that night, you hardly laughed or smiled, maybe because i wasn't really a funny person or maybe, you know, we never understood each other. We grew and we changed. You have really big arms now, which remindsme of a pokemon, machoke, the one with really big arms. And you have ugly short hair, but i don't blame you, cause it wasnt your fault when you had to cut it in the army. But you were always cute and really nice teeth, I have always thought you were cute since day 1. But i kinda liked your company, even though we were silent at some points. And when you told me you have always thought i was pretty, it melted my heart. when you stared at me with your kinda stare again, I couldn't look into your eyes and you were so frustrated and said "LOOK INTO MY EYES!!!" and i laughed and you said "Ok maybe staring would be easier, stare at me." But I couldn't do it cause it would make me wannna mess up and rufffle your short bristle-ish hair and hug you and say OMG YOU ARE SOOO CUUUUUTE. And when i grow up, this will always be part of me, cause you;ve been in my life for a really long time.

To Marky, my beautiful flower

Hello Marky, I dont know whether you will ever see this, maybe you would and I just wannna say it hurts me to see you like this and I really hope you're gonna be happy again and I dont know what else I could do to make things better but just be the happy crazy marky I used to know :(

yanhan says:
ook...haha everything to you is stupid anyway

- says:
haha er no?
not you


something that made my night a little less colder :)

i feel like everything's back on track now! i no longer need to think so hard, actually i dont know why i keep thinking so hard when i already knew the answer at the back of my mind, but i guess i was in self denial. Self denial mode is crazily scary, it's self destructive and it hurts. BUT ITS OK!!! i'm happpy, settled stufff, and i feeel brand new. i feel like myself again, the weird girl, i mean, the happy weird girl!!!!

PS, its ok if you dont understand what the hell i am writing, i just wanted to say,thats all. Life with good friends is really wonderful, and blessed.

i finished toodle's first pack of 10 films alreday!!!! i heart toodle, though alot of money fly away, but i heart toodle